Azura felt as though it has been hours while waiting for Arcee and Bumblebee to get ready for the cortical psychic patch, and for Miko to come back with either plush toy for her to hug. She knew that it was just her nerves that was making her feel like that, along with the fact that her mind was thinking over so many things at the moment, that it was hard to really keep up. She was struggling with so many emotions right now, that it wasn't funny. She was still crying very softly as well, as the pain of it all was just so hard for her to handle. And all she could do was cry.
Ratchet had been instructing Arcee on what to find and use in the decepticon lab, and he turned to look at Azura and noticed she was crying softly. He felt awful she was feeling this way, and he wanted to pick her up. But he would need permission to do that first. Especially as she would be adamant about staying with Optimus, even though he was weakening rapidly.
"Azura." She flinched and looked up at him in surprise. Ratchet smiled at the sparkling kindly. "You don't want a hug?" She shook her head immediately. "I understand. I know you have a lot of things going through your head. I bet there are lots of questions that you wish you had answers to." She nodded and sniffled a little. "I am afraid I don't know what I can say to soothe all the thoughts in your mind. But you are loved, and we will ensure that Megatron stays away from you."
"What if you are wrong?" Jack asked curiously, making Ratchet turn to him in surprise. "You already know that it is just my mom and myself, and my father is not in the picture. I know what it is like to have a single parent." Ratchet knew this, though he did not what Jack was trying to say. "I love my mom. She's done so much for me, and made sure that I had everything that I needed. She worked so hard to become a nurse, and I am proud to be her son." Azura smiled as she listened, knowing he was sympathizing with her right now too. "But...there is always that small voice at the back of your mind yearning for the other parent. I often think about my father, and think about how we might meet again, the things we say and do...and if I had the opportunity to speak to him for closure, I would do it."
Ratchet listened go the boy politely and sighed softly. "I think I understand what you are trying to say, Jack. I commend you for believing that Azura might feel the same way. And maybe she does, but Megatron could easily hurt Azura. Or use her, like he had intended to when he created the habloid sparks. I don't see any kind of meeting between the two to be good."
"Jack does have a point though, doc," Bulkhead said softly, making Ratchet look at him in surprise. "If Azura has an interest in meeting Megatron, I am not sure if it something we can deny. Optimus can, since he's her carrier, but that does mean we can't make that decision." Ratchet grumbled a little as he knew that they were right. "Although, I do doubt that Azura wouldn't go out of her way to meet him anyway."
"Well, you don't know what she is thinking. Azura may very well want to know who he is, or at least, was before he became a decepticon." Azura knew that Jack was trying to advocate for her, and she thoroughly appreciated that wholeheartedly. But Azura did not know if she would ever want to meet Megatron. "And if an opportunity presented itself where she could meet him...she may take it. I am just saying, because I know what it is like to want to know the other side of yourself." Jack looked at Azura with a smile. "And I have no doubt that Azura is feeling that way tremendously as well."
Azura remained silent as she really didn't want to say if she did or did not want to meet Megatron. She felt that would be a conversation that she didn't want to have. Ratchet watched Azura for a moment to see her reaction before he looked back at Jack with a smile. "You and Bulkhead have presented good points, Jack. But you and I both know that looking for closure may not be the best action to have. Especially regarding this situation. If things were different, I might be inclined to agree. But at the end of the day, Optimus will be the one to have the first and last say. Though..." Ratchet looked back at Azura as he softened his expression. "I have a feeling now knowing that Megatron is alive, their paths will cross eventually. I don't know how or when...but it will."
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When All Lights Go Out I (TFP)
Fantasy***First Book in Series*** A seemingly orphaned girl who has misfortune for the majority of her life, with only a special crystal as the only connection her birthparents, learns that she is not all as normal as she thinks. And when she tries to find...
