Sorry

Numb: The ache within

How I felt so numb?

When I had trouble in answering the simplest question,

"Are you okay?"

Maybe the question wasn't as simple as it sounded.

Neither was my response,

"I am okay."

At times I wanted to tell you,

I wanted to share the feelings I felt,

The misery I had, the damage I dealt.

But then I thought of what happened the last time.

I shared my pain to you,

And you said to your best friend,

"She's nice but she's hard to handle."

I told you how you were hurting me

And you said,

"You're always sad, you're just sad."

I wish you could hear my heart shatter.

"Okay sorry, I'll try my best."

That was all I ever heard.

I was numb.

Too sad for sorrow,

Not too happy for joy.

I felt everything,

Yet I felt nothing.