Don't ever leave me please..

Chapter 5: explanation

The guys arrived home, Killua and Gon were sitting in the bed of gon's room, they stayed a minute scilent and then, gon said
" Killua, can you answer my question?..." nothing
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Killua couldnt do anything but to cry, he had no clue how to explain this.
Gon started criying again, he was so sad, he couldn't help it.
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"Y-yes" said killua with a broken-like glass voice, pusshing his eyes, triying to stop the tears, thing that he couldn't do.
"I-i, dunno how to explain very well but, when we separated.... I, sorry gon, I need a minute"..
Gon spoke nothing until his best friend was at his side once again, in his bed, now full of tears
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Killua's POV:
Shit, shit, shit, ugh i cant, why did i do that?

"Killua, please respond"
"okay....well this is hard to explain.....um.."
The tears couldn't stop in my face, there were running fast,but oh, Gon was criying a lot more than me.
I touch his face, full of tears yust like mine, triying to wipp them, but they keep coming. Then i started criying hard as him....
"K-killua, please promess me you wont cut yourself again! Please do it! "

"Okay i promess" we put our fingers together and seal the promess with our thumbs.
Gon stopped criying but i could feel that he still wanted an explanation, so that's what i'll do
" Gon, I know you still want the explanation so, here it goes." I inhale and exhale, I was so nervous to explain gon about it, the actual reason was that, when i was alone, without him... I missed him a lot but when I started to like him... I was afraid that gon didn't feel the same, I still do. So that painfull cuts on my arm disstracted me ftom my real pain, that gon didn't like me back
Im sorry for feeling this way gon, i know you dont.
That's the thing i told myself before i cutted my arm, almost every day.
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There's no point that i lie to him anymore, he would know inmediatly if im liying or not. I thought.
I have to tell my feelings to gon

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Gon's POV:

"Killua, please answer" i knew it will take amoment for him to talk, he is nervous, who wouldnt be?

Killua's POV :
"Truly, the reason i cutted myself is..." I have to confess, its now or never.
"Its because I-i was overthinking so much about our relashionship as friends... I thought that you won't love me the way i do love you, i care about you all the time, but you... You don't have to do that, i know you love me, but not that much.."
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Killua has given an enormus clue to gon that he liked kim, but gon isn't a good one caching the clues-
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"Sorry gon" i said while wipping my tears "excuse me" i whispered and walk to the bathroom.

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Author :
Yepp, that's chapter 5, sad 😭.
Anyways thanks for the 27 👁 (thanks a lot pookies)
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Byeee, see u all in chapter 6 😇