Adopted by Shawn Mendes

Chapter 17

Kenzie's pov
I woke up on the couch I had my phone so I got on Twitter and saw hate about me and Hayes being together (made up names)
Mattxespinosa|yall are the worst I should have Hayes not her.
Hayes💖| the worst couple Hayes deserves better like me she's sooo ugly.

I start to cry and I see I'm the only one home I think they went out then I hear a car I run upstairs and just think about what people said then I start to doubt myself about if I'm pretty enough if I deserve Hayes I go to the bathroom lock the door and just look at myself for like 2 hours then I hear a knock at the door
Hayes:Kenzie are you okay?
Me:yeah
I find a razor and start to cut
I start to cry
Hayes:open up Kenzie we need to talk
I didn't answer then he picks the lock I cut 3 times being ugly,not good enough,and being fat. I'm sitting in the bath tub with the curtain closed Hayes walks in and looks for me then looks in the bathtub and sees me and asks
Hayes:why?
With tears in his eyes he pick me up and cleans my wrist and takes me to my bed and ask again almost crying
Hayes:why Kenzie why are you harming yourself
Me|because of tweets
Hayes:let me see
Me|see what my cuts or the tweets
Hayes:both
I show him the tweets then my cuts he is about to cry
Hayes:please don't do it again
Me:okay please don't tell anybody including dad
Hayes;I can't make any promises
Me:please I'll tell them
Hayes:okay
I put on a sweatshirt and shorts and walk downstairs they all look at me weird except for Hayes they ask me
Everybody:why do you have on a hoodie
Me:because I'm cold
Cameron:but your waring shorts
Me:yeah but my arms are cold not my legs
Nash:okay but we're going to the beach
Hayes give me a look like you need to tell them or I will then i go upstairs and he follows me
Hayes:they're going to see
Me:I know
Hayes:what are you going to do
Me:I don't know.help me!
Hayes:ok just say you don't want to swim
Me:okay
Then we walk downstairs they all ask why don't you have on a bathing suit
Me:I don't want to swim
Dad:okay
We get to the beach I just set down on the sand then I fell my sleeve come up I quickly pull it down and then I see who it is its Cameron he looks at me then says
Cam:why'd you do this. Those tweets don't mean anything they're just jealous your perfect just the way you are💖
Then he leaves I guess Hayes told him or he heard us then we leave and go home Hayes comes to my room
Me:did you tell Cameron?
Hayes:yes
Me:why?
Hayes:because he's closest to you other than your dad and me. He needed to know and so does your dad and Nash you need to tell them.!
Me:but dad will kill me.
Hayes:no he won't.
Me:fine.
Then dad walks in
Dad:Kenzie.
Me:you heard?
Dad:yes.
Me:you don't understand
Dad:yes I do. Hayes can you leave?
Hayes:sure
Me:daddy I know your mad.
Dad:I'm not mad I'm confused.
Me:what about?
Dad:why?let me see.
Me:i did it because of hate.
Then I showed him and he almost cried
Me:daddy don't cry.
Daddy:then stop.
Me:okay
Then we hug and I fall asleep because it's like 12:40 and I'm tired after a long day.
••••Next Day••••
I wake up and I go on Twitter witch was a bad idea I see worse then yesterday I looked in the mirror and told myself
"I'm not good enough I'm so ugly I'm fat and they don't love me because I'm so ugly why am I still here they don't deserve me maybe if I die they'll be happy but I'm not ready to die but I will cut 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 know lets go celebrate now I'm better"
Hayes pov
I go to Kenzie's door and I hear her taking "I'm not good enough I'm so ugly I'm fat and they don't love me because I'm so ugly why am I still here they don't deserve me maybe if I die they'll be happy but I'm not ready to die but I will cut 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 know lets go celebrate. Now I'm better" that breaks my heart I walk downstairs and tell the guys
Me: guys she's doing it
Nash:doing what
Cameron:cutting
Me:I heard her she said, "I'm not good enough I'm so ugly I'm fat and they don't love me because I'm so ugly why am I still here they don't deserve me maybe if I die they'll be happy but I'm not ready to die but I will cut 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 know lets go celebrate. now I'm better" that's exactly what she said and I'm worried.
Shawn:me and Hayes will go check on her
We walk up stairs knock on the door and hear a faint "come in" we walk in and you can't even tell but you can tell she's been crying
Me:Kenzie are you okay
Kenzie:yeah
Shawn:let us see
Kenzie:I didn't do anything
Me:yes you did I heard you talk to your self you cut yourself 8 times please stop!
Then she shows us for know on I'm with her all the time well someone is
Me:give us your razors
She gave them to us and Shawn hide them I was holding her and she fell asleep I put her in her bed and fell asleep with her.