I let you destroy me again today
I let everything in,
And it was nice
For a while
You're not here when I have to breathe out though
I don't get to destroy you
Because doesn't work like that
You're not here to watch me ruminate and cultivate
these emotions before spilling them and unleashing them
onto my palms, and into my mattress
So many nights I can't sleep without a picture of you next to me; imagining you're here.
Why do I keep doing it?
Why do I let everything in?
When you can berate me with my own name.
When you can level me with your eyes.
When you can taunt me with your touch.
Why do I let you destroy me time and time...
