Love At Loss

4.

We were on the way to Darrian's house when Darrian's phone started ringing .

He picked it up .

"DARRIAAAAAN !" She yelled .

"That's how you gone scream my name tonight ?" He laughed .

"Mmcht whateva . What you doin baeee ?" She asked .

"I'm drivin baby ."He answered .

"You wanna pull up on me tonight ?" She asked .

"Yo later ight ." He said .

"Mmmcht no nigga right now ." She said .

"Nahh I'm busy right now mami ."He answered .

"Ight I love you ." He said .

"Ight ." She answered shortly before hanging up.

I felt so jealous .  Not only of Darrian's girlfriend but of how he was acting as if everything was okay . I'm falling apart inside and out .

We got to his house and he opened the door .

Miss Jimenez was on the couch sleeping .

I'm sure she wouldn't mind me staying here . She treated me as her own .

"You wanna stay in Vaeh's room or you think it's too soon?" He asked .

"I can stay in Vaeh's room ." I said .

I walked up to her room and it felt so strange going in . All her stuff was the exact same way she left it .

I seen all of our pictures on the wall, her messy bed , her school shoes .

I lied across her bed and imagined we were having a sleep over .

I ended up falling asleep in her bed .

Dream

"Y/n y/n girl wake up . It's just a bad dream you're having a bad dream . I'm not dead see I'm perfectly fine ." Nevaeh said .

"VAEH OH MY GOD ITS YOU .You know how hard shit been . Come here come here ." I snatched her up and gave her a hug .

"We got so much to catch up on ." I said

"Girl spill we have all the time in the wor-."

Shots were fired and Navaeh instantly fell to the ground.

End of dream .

"AAAAAAAAH !" I woke up screaming in cold sweat.

"It's okay it's okay it's okay . I'm right here ." Darrian said coming in the room .

"I don't wanna feel this shit nomore ." I said sobbing and crying .

"I know I know ."

He hugged me tightly and rested his chin on my head .

"Look if you want you can come to the game room with me so you won't be alone .I'm playing 2k." He said .

"O-okay ." I said .

I followed him downstairs to his game room .

Him raging was funny .

Soon he stopped playing and started listening to music .

"AYE GOT A LINK OUT HERE THAT LIKE TO ACT LIKE SHE DONT KNOWWW ME HE SAID HE SAID LAST TIME I SEEN HER I AINT EVEN HAVE MY ROLLIE AND ITS ON GO." He danced walking over to me .

"PULL-UP IN A 2 SEAT JUST YOU AND ME !" He picked me up from behind spinning me around while I laughed .

Darrian was so fun to be around .

"Yo you feel any better ?" He asked .

"Yea only when I'm around you ." I smiled at him .

"I make you feel better ?" He asked licking his lips .

"You do ." I answered .

I started leaning in and he started leaning in too .

We started making out and I'll admit I felt sparks butI instantly started feeling regret .

Even though I hated his girlfriend I didn't wanna be a homewrecker .

I pulled away.

"What's wrong ?" He asked .

"This isn't right ."I said .

"You right it ain't right but lemme just get a little more ." He said pulling my face back.

He started feeling all over my body .

Fuck it.

Things started to get more intense . We started swapping spit.

All of a sudden Darrian's phone rings again.

He pulls away .

"Shit ." He said .

I knew who it was .

"Hey mami . What you want ?" He asked .

"You . You was posed to be coming ova remember?" She asked .

"Oh shitttt i just got held up . I'm on the way ." He said .

"I love you ." She told him .

"I love you too ." He told her .

I gagged .

"Y/n Imma have to go. You gone be ight ?" He asked .

"Yeah ." I told him .

"You wanna play something til I get back ?" He asked .

"Nah I probably just sit here ." I told him .

He started heading to the door .

"Darrian . Are you gonna fuck her ?" I asked disappointed .

"I mean she my girl Y/n ."He replied .

"So why you just kiss me like that ?" I asked .

"Cuz I wanna see you happy ." He replied .

I sighed .

I already know what he meant by that .

He walked out of the game room .

I knew from the night on this would be the start of something else .