I want to know what color I am. Vol. 1

Chapter 2 - My sister's monologue

Anyway, we started eating our plates of food.

— Today we are going to make history! - Ray said.

— Stop being a nerd.

— What did I do this time?

— You are funny. - Yuta laughed.

Lunch time ended and we headed towards the living room.

— Bye, Makoto and Nagisa!

— Bye, good luck to you.

Ray, Amane and Yuta are from class 1-B.

— You're my best friend now, right?

— Huh, we always were.

— But now you're a girl. I don't have friends with girls, at least I didn't.

— How not? You are one of the most popular people in school.

— Most people only approach me for status, so I don't trust anyone but you. - Makoto started patting my head while we walked to school.

I had no reaction.

— Didn't like it? I don't do it anymore, sorry.

— It's not that, it's just that no one had done this before. So I don't know how to react.

— I understand, I'll do it more often so you get used to it.

— You can do it, I really don't care.

We continued walking, when I saw the ranking of the highest grades in the first year of high school classes.

— My sister comes first.

— She's really quite intelligent, right?

— I confess that I didn't know that, we weren't very close.

— She seemed to want to be close to you.

— She always wanted a sister, so it's understandable.

— I understand. I realized something too
.
— What?

— Your height hasn't changed, you're still the same height.

— I was always really short.

We arrived at the room and sat down. Makoto sat on my left side.

They were boring classes, as always.

Classes ended and we went straight to our club room.

— Nagisa!

Rin ran towards me and hugged me.

— Oh, hi Rin.

— Are you going to your club?

— Yes.

— I'm going to the volleyball club, we'll stay late, can you come and see me?

- I can, yes.

—Thanks!

Rin said that and left.

— What was your relationship with your sister like?

— We didn't speak properly.

— So she decided to get clingy just because you're in that body?

— Apparently yes.

— She irritates me.

— It doesn't have to be like this.

— But you're not just limited to your body, your mind matters too. This is false!

I didn't expect Makoto to react like that, I didn't imagine he cared so much about me.

— Thanks.

— You smiled? Nagisa, you smiled!

— I think it's because of you.

—I am so happy! I made you smile.

— That is good?

— Of course, you never smile, ever. I've never seen you smile.

— I was really happy that you cared so much about me.

— Of course I care, you're my best friend.

— Shall we go to the club?

— Let's go.

We arrived at the club room, and the rest of the members were already there.

— Time for Counter-Stringer?

— Of course, sit down.

There are five computers in the room, so we are no longer accepting members. Who knows, maybe one day there will be more computers.

We played for a while and won them all.

— WE ARE IN THE BIGGEST RANK OF THE GAME! - Yuta shouted.

— Yes! - Makoto shouted.

— Hey, I know this is good, but don't yell. - I said.

— They got scolded from Nagisa. - Ray said

— It's really unfortunate. - Amane said.

— I'm sorry, Nagisa.

— Oh, it's okay. Shall we go now?

— We are going, yes.

The five of us headed towards the school exit.

— You can go ahead, I'm going to see my sister at volleyball.

— So, take care!

Ray, Amane and Yuta left.

— Why did you stay?

— I won't abandon you for anything.

— Ok then.

We headed towards the volleyball court and arrived.

We stood at the door watching the girls play.

— Is that your sister? - asked a member of the club.

— Oh, yes. Hi Nagisa! - Rin shouted my name when he made a cut on the ball. Scored a point. She's actually really good at the sport.

— Hi.

— Thanks for coming to see me!

— You are welcome.

I watched her play for a while longer, it was at the end, so I didn't wait long.

— She still irritates me.

— As much as she irritates you, she's still my big sister.

— Are you the younger sister?

— Yes.

— I thought you were the oldest.

— Everyone thinks that.

I really didn't care about anything they said or thought about me or my sister. It's just none of my business what people think of me. If I no longer care about myself, imagine other people.

My sister's training ended and she came to me.

— I was very happy, thank you for showing up!

— You're welcome, don't worry about it.

She was ignoring that Makoto was there too.

— I can go home with you.

— Oh, yes.

She was still ignoring Makoto.

We went towards our house.

— You annoy me.

Oh no. Makoto is stressed. I don't want to imagine what will happen now.

—What do you mean by that? - Rin said, in a cold way.

— That's right.

I was in the middle of them.

— Who are you to say that?

— Nagisa's best friend.

— And I'm part of her family, I'm her older sister!

— A sister who never cared about Nagisa, and only started to care when she woke up in a girl's body. Strange, right?

— You do not know anything about me.

I was silent, they stopped walking and started arguing in front of me. I couldn't do anything, I didn't know what to do.

— But I know you're a fake.

— Don't say nonsense about me when you don't know anything about me!

— What I know is that you only care about Nagisa's body and don't care about her mind!

— Yes, I do care, I always have. Ever!

— Impossible.

— I'm afraid of men! - Rin screamed and started crying?

-—What?

— I'm simply afraid of men. I can't talk to any of them and I start to shake, my heart starts to race and I panic! It's not that I didn't like Nagisa, I was just afraid of her! To interact with her, to talk to her. I always wanted to support her! I know she is depressed and doesn't see colors in life, I always knew! And I could never do anything! But when she woke up in this body, I felt willing to help her and finally talk to her properly! I have always loved her as my little sister, always, always, always, always, ALWAYS! So don't say things you don't know!

I didn't expect anything she said. I didn't know she felt this way and I had no idea she cared so much about me.

— It's okay... - I hugged my sister, patting her hair.

— Nagisa...

— I had no idea you felt this way, I'm sorry. I love you too sister.

— Thank you, really thank you.

— Look, I'm sorry. I judged you without knowing anything about you. - Makoto was embarrassed.

— It's okay, you didn't know. I know you care a lot about my sister, so I'm really happy.

— Okay, I'm really sorry.

We started walking towards our homes again.

They were already fine with each other, thankfully.