diary || keeping track of my weight gain

7 december 2023

Written; 7/12/2023

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Right I woke up too late so I didn't immediately get to check my weight, but when I did it said 88 kg which is GOOD, another kg, when I get to 90 I'm gonna order food bc yeysyekdhedn would deserve it (IMO)

I felt more bloated as per usual and in the progress pictures I took I can kinda see the bloat (not as much as I do irl), and my face/jaw is getting chubbier even in one of the progress pictures
My waist also feels like it has more fat on it now, same for my legs and thighs, I notice that mostly when sitting or laying down as it feels like quite some weight ykykykyk
Upper arms might be a bit chubbier but my lower arms haven't really gained any fat yet, my back could also use some more of it..
I've had sweatpants merchandise of Billie Eilish since 2019/2020 now and has been fitting me just fine until today, I can still wear it but its getting way tighter and doesn't fit like how it used to do a few months ago

I had 10 minutes of walking (5 minutes to school and 5 minutes to go back home) and 15 minutes of walking with a woman called Yoshi, besides that I stayed at home all day in my bedroom laying in bed, eating and watching televisionnnn
I got a comment from someone I have added on discord asking me why I had a pfp like that with my belly sticking out and a random number in my about me, I told them about my goals and then I basically got ignored (they weren't a friend of mine just someone who added tons of people in a random server few months back)
Besides that I didn't get any comments or glances from anyone else

What I ate;
During the night I've finished 2 chocolate spread jars mixed with oil for extra calories in the span of an hour and around 10 minutes, then I fell asleep before I could eat anything else
I had 4 sandwiches for lunch, 2 with tomatoes cheese and something else, and 2 with chocolate spread and peanut butter, I ate 2 yoghurt thingies (one with strawberries and one with honey), and the snacks overall that day were chocolate spread and a Dutch thing called kruidnoten, around 20 profiteroles (was craving them), I got a chocolate bar from my mother and still had 2 others, and for dinner I had steak and bread with garlic butter, not a lot but it was really good!!!
For dessert I had ice cream which wasn't that much

Then once I finished dessert I went upstairs to take a shower, all that and go to my room, tried on some clothes which ARE NOW TIGHT YESHJFKDHS, did skin care and rubbed my belly in oil, after that I got into bed and now will continue to eat again!! Well no maybe not bc I'm feeling like absolute SHIT but whatever

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