diary || keeping track of my weight gain

9 december 2023

Written; 9/12/2023

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Woke up, checked my weight WITH IT BEING 90,1 YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, haven't ordered food or anything yet BUT I WILL SOON, main goal is 100 kg and will have to lose some of the weight again after..

Physically I don't know if I'm changing that much, it's all just gone to my belly and arms, maybe soon it will go everywhere else too..? Idk, BUT WE'LL SEE, my belly for sure is gaining fat though.. I had to go horse riding today (once per week on Saturday) and I have to wear some ugly ass body protector, it's whatever, but it doesn't fit anymore. I tried getting it on today (it only has to go around my chest waist stomach etc you get it) but it wasn't working, was stressing like crazy at the moment, very happy with it now though!! Gonna have to buy a new one soon!!! A bad thing is the sweater I got yesterday from my grandmother fits pretty big on me and it's supposedly a size M, medium... Like it fits how it's supposed to fit, I don't know how that works as my cropped tops which are a size L, large, fit either normally or tightly, oh well

Activity was probably too much, only horse riding which I do for an hour, but I was riding the absolute slowest fuck of all time. Very sweet horse sure but lord. Besides that I was in bed all day, making an exception to get food shower daily tasks etc. I didn't get comments or glances from anyone sadly.

What I ate; During the night I ate half a jar of peanut butter, then I just decided to go to sleep bc it was 4 AM....... For breakfast I had 3 sandwiches with peanut butter, after that went to horse riding, got back home and for snacks had some leftover chicken wings, 2 yogurts (think I spelled it wrong in my other chapters but I'm too lazy to check and fix it), and 3 chocolate bars, for dinner I had fries and something we call a kroket and a frikandel, again, too lazy to check the translation, but it's gooooood!! I then ate 2 ice creams for dessert

I'll be heading to bed in a little bit and might eat the peanut butter I have left, very tired though so we'll have to see.. First my usual routine aka skin care rubbing my belly with oil, I actually might play a game?!!?!? Yes!! 

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had to write this on my pc so if it sucks I will just blame the pc, ANYWAY BYE