Messages From the Void

Every day's a fucking test

and I'm getting sick of it.
You think you know what's going on
but then the world kicks you back down.
How many times have I thought I was in the right place
but the lies were uncovered and I found the truth.
It happens over and over and over and over again,
giving me no fucking rest when I'm alone at night.
What do I do to stop this cycle?
Must I shun every person I encounter?
What kind of a world would this be
if that's what I had to resort to.
I don't know if I'm fucking crazy,
who realizes that their own reality is askew?
It's all I know, I can't compare answers
and it used to be okay until it wasn't.
Is that really what growing up is?
Just realizing that the whole world is fucked?
I don't know if I wanna live in a world like that,
It's an endless depression that I can't escape.