𝐖𝐎𝐒𝐎 𝐗 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

I still love you (Jessie Fleming)

ANGST

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"I just don't understand, can you please talk to me?" Jessie sniffed and followed behind you. You had walked into your bedroom and grabbed a suitcase. You started packing your clothes into the suitcase. 

"I'm going to pack a suitcase for a few days and i'm going to stay with Millie for right now, until i get a place of my own." you told jessie. The short brunette was standing behind you, crying. 

"You're not leaving." Jessie said, she unpacked the few clothes you had in the suitcase. "Jessie" you said in a stern voice. Jessie stopped and looked at you. "Please don't make this hard for me." you said re packing everything she had thrown out. 

"I'll be back for my stuff another day...just text me whenever you're not here and ill come to get the rest of my shit." you walked into the bathroom and got your toothbrush and other things. 

You packed everything you needed and zipped the suitcase up. As you were about to exit the bedroom jessie stopped you. 

Jessie stood in front of the door, not letting you pass, she had her arms covering the whole doorway. 

"Jessie" you sighed. 

"Why? You can leave if you want...but you owe me an explanation..that's the least you could do" Jessie said with teary eyes. 

"I don't need to explain myself..i just can't do this" You shook your head. "You do need t explain- you can't just leave and break up with me for no reason." you stayed silent not wanting to confront the reason. 

"What did i do wrong? I can fix it i promise, i'll be a better girlfriend. Whatever it is, we can fix it" Jessie reached for your hand but you yanked it away. Jessie then put her hands on her hips and stood in front of the doorway.

"Please, y/n" Jessie said looking straight into her eyes. 

An explanation, is what she wanted. That's the only thing you could give her right?

"Lets sit somewhere..." you said. Jessie nodded quickly and walked over to the living room, she sat on the edge of the couch. 

"What do you want me to tell you..." you said as you sat down on the couch. "What do i want you to say? Are you serious? You didn't come home last night and i wake up to you wanting to break up with me? We've been together for 5 years y/n. An explanation would be nice" Jessie said.

"Well...it all started a few days ago?" you said looking down at your hands, not having the guts to look at Jessie. "When your mom came over..and when she asked you about kids." You finally looked up at jessie, who looked like the had connected the dots. 

"oh, y/n...we don't have to have three kids, if you want i'm perfectly fine with one or two-" jessie said calmly. "I'm not even sure if i want to have any!" you said out loud. That was something you had been keeping in ever since that day. The way Jessie was confidently telling her mom she wants three kids with you, made your blood boil, she had never talked about that with you.

Jessie took a minute to even say something.

"What- i mean i thought you wanted to be together...with me..forever?" she said. "I do- i did- i-" you took a deep breath in. 

"Jessie, i love you i do. I want to be with you forever, i want to grow old with you" you told the brunette. 

"Then what- I don't understand" Jessie sighed. 

"I just dont think i can give you the future that you want. Kids? I don't know how to be a mother" you scoffed. 

"Me neither y/n but that's how it always is, we get to learn together." Jessie said motioning to the both of you with her hands.

"You grew up with a lovely mother Jess, you did and i love your mother. You had a positive mother figure. I didn't" you said. 

"If this is about your mom, you're nothing like her and you won't ever be, if that is what's holding you back." Jessie looked at you. 

"I don't know how to be a mom, how am i supposed to give you kids Jessie? What if i turn out like her-" you said. "You won't. Don't say that." Jessie shook her head side to side.

"I wanted to break up because i figured if i can't give you what you want, then what's the point of us?" you said looking back down at your hands. Jessie scooted closer to you and grabbed your hands. 

"If you don't want kids, we don't have to have kids y/n. It's not just about what i want" Jessie whispered to you. "I want kids- i just don't want to be anything like how my mother was." you said. "And i don't want to break up with you Jessie, that's the last thing i want" you shook your head. 

"I'm sorry, the whole idea of kids and my mother, it got mixed up in my brain and it scared me" you apologized 

"Don't be sorry, i understand. We have time. We're still young we don't have to think about that right now. We have time to discuss this some other day, but please don't leave me" Jessie told you. "I'm not leaving Jessie, i don't think im capable of doing that." you smiled at the brunette next to you. 

"And even if we dont end up having kids, just know, i still love you" jessie wrapped her arm around you and looked at you. "No matter what" you finished her sentence off. 

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A/N: Haven't written for jessie in DAYSSS but i hope you enjoy thiss:)