i opened my lilac bag
with a sense of defeat
i'm still in disbelief
you, her together
me, you apart
i took them all at once
the first pill was yellow
like her shocking teeth
the second pill was red
like the blood i bleed
the third pill was black
like the edges of this pit
the last ten pills were white
like how you should've been
an angel from birth
the hardest pill was colourless
because it had a broken spirit
and made me lie on the floor
to dream about a boy
who sold me to the wolves
and fed me to the sharks
