seventeen

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It's my seventeenth, and I'm crying about a lot of things

Like how I spent half of my birthday money on new shoes

That I don't like that much,

All because I see pretty girls wear them.


I thought some magic shoes

Would make me just like you,

But when I walk, it just hurts and I feel uncomfortable.


A magic spell

I imagined for myself didn't work,

I still look the same.

Still got this long face

And young brain.


I thought a magic spell could mend me,

Time and time again

I tried

To make myself like the things I'm supposed to like,

Studying psychology but only music is on my mind.

Go to Uni, get a degree, see the things my mom never got to see

I live my own life in my fantasies,

No magic spells will fix me.


It's my seventeenth, things are not the same.

I used to only be blue now I'm washing off the paint

It's still wet, I can be saved,

But I can't underestimate what it'll take.

It's my seventeenth, I am not the same

I'm tired of always trying to change

The girl I was, she won't come back

Shes gone, and I have to accept that.

But a new me

Can be made.

It's my seventeenth, I'll start today. 

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