Unforeseen change (CaitBea)

[9] I used to hate her

The next day...

Bea

As expected, bunch of reposts and video edits of me and Jho are all over social media sites, especially Tiktok and Twitter (Now X app). According to them, buhay na naman daw ang ship nila. Good for ilang years na din daw 'yong ayuda na 'yon. 

Biglang maraming what ifs. Paano kung umamin ako and fought for what I felt for her? Would things be different?

I sighed in disgust. Kase naman, when will they realize ba na wala talagang chance? And I made it very clear naman sa isa kong interview na we are just close friends. 

I wonder if Caitlin had seen those already. 

Wait, What am I worrying about ba?

But still...

During our break from training...

Cait was sitting on one corner drinking when I took the courage to talk to her.

"Uhmm Cait" I start. I sat beside her.

"Mmmm" 

"About that night sa Angatleta. You know that Jho and I just did that for the sake of the fans and sa program, right?" I said. 

"Ah. Yung sa advice serye n'yo? Oo nga I saw some posts about it." She answered and took a short pause. "Teka, Why are you even explaining?" She laughs

Caitlin

I was surprised when Bea suddenly talking about her encounter with Jho that night. I mean, It's not that I care. 

Okay. I really freaking care. A lot. In fact, I just spent the whole night thinking kung para lang ba talaga 'yon sa advice serye nila and fans and what if bumalik ulit 'yong feelings ni Bea for Jho after being that close to her again?

I can't believe this is happening! Ano bang ginagawa mo sa 'kin, Bea de Leon?

Halatang-halatang nag-enjoy nga siya eh.

"Y-yeah, you're right. Why am I explaining nga ba?" She said in a low frustrated and upset voice.. 

Pero, where did that exactly come from? Is she worried of how would I feel about it? Well, she's Bea. Sobra naman talaga pagka-considerate and caring niya. Pero parang sobra naman yata na pati ako nahiya with how I responded.

She was about to stood up and leave me when...

"Kamusta ka? I mean, after that. After mo siyang makasama ulit ng gano'n ka-close." I asked. 

She stopped and umupo ulit.

"I'm fine. Matagal naman na 'kong okay. I don't feel anything anymore." She replied.

Well, that's good to know na wala na talaga. And I know her. Kahit hindi pa kami gan'on katagal na nagkakasama. But she's true to her words. Kapag sinabi niyang wala na. wala na talaga.

Aside from that, we talked about other stuffs and bumalik na din sa training after.

Weeks after the issue or more likely "shipping thingy" that night sa Angatleta between me and Deanna was sorted out, It somehow gradually fizzled out. I hope. Wala naman ding nagbago sa 'min. Except, mas naging maingat na kami with our actions when we're out in public or kapag may camera. You know, kapag may mga naka-live sa kumu kami na teammates or kapag may nag v-video or picture. Well, that's just for me. Sana nga wala.