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14. ✨Feelings✨

1300+ 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜

ʜɪɪ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ!! ʜᴏᴘᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴜʏs ᴀʀᴇ ᴅᴏɪɴɢ ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ'ᴍ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ sᴏʀʀʏ ғᴏʀ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ɪɴᴀᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ sɪɴᴄᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ sᴡᴇᴀʀ ɪᴛ's sᴏ ʜᴇᴄᴛɪᴄ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛʟʏ ᴀs ɴᴇᴡ sᴇssɪᴏɴs ᴀʀᴇ sᴛᴀʀᴛɪɴɢ sᴏᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ɪ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴀʀʀᴀɴɢᴇ ᴍʏ ʙᴏᴏᴋs,ɴᴏᴛᴇs,ʙᴀɢ ᴇᴛᴄ ᴇᴛᴄ.
ʙᴜᴛ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴏʀʀʏ ᴀʙ ᴍᴀɪ ᴀᴀ ɢʏɪ ʜᴜ ɴᴀ ᴀʙ ᴀᴀᴘ ʜᴍᴀʀᴇ ᴠɪʀᴀᴊ ᴀᴜʀ ᴀʀᴄʜɪsʜᴀ ᴋᴏ ᴅᴜʙᴀʀᴀ ᴍɪʟ sᴋᴛɪ ʜᴏ 🤭
sᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴀɴʏ ғᴜʀᴛʜᴇʀ ʙᴀᴋᴡᴀs ʟᴇᴛ's ᴅɪᴠᴇ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴏᴜʀ ғɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴᴀʟ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ᴀᴜʀ ʜᴀ ɪɴsᴛᴀ ᴘᴇ ғᴏʟʟᴏᴡ ᴋʀ ᴅᴏ ʏʀʀ ɢᴜʏs
ɪ'ᴅ- ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀ_sʀɪ
ᴊʟᴅɪ sᴇ ᴋʀᴅᴏ ɪᴛ'ʟʟ ʜᴇʟᴘ ᴍᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ 😭

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(𝘼𝙧𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙖'𝙨 𝙋𝙊𝙑)

I washed my face several times in the hope that the redness on my face would eventually disappear but unfortunately it didn't.
My eyes were swollen and nose was as red as a tomato. I looked like a clown which made me release a small chuckle between tears.

When I saw myself in the washroom's mirror for last time before going out and facing everyone,I noticed something

"I..I look like..."
And realization hit me,Viraj looked the same on the day I accused him of consuming drugs.

"Did he...cry...?"

I was cursing myself for saying rubbish to him that time but then someone knocked on the door.

*knock knock*

"K-kaun?" My voice seemed heavy due to crying for so long.

"Andr hi rhne ka irada h kya?" Raghav said from the other side
(ᴛʀᴀɴsʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴ- "ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴘʟᴀɴs ᴛᴏ ʟɪᴠᴇ ɪɴsɪᴅᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ?")

I wiped my tears and replied " Y-yes coming" Then he left from my room.

I entered my room,changed into night wear and then went to the dining table.
I sat on the chair besides Raghav and started having my food silently.

"Aaru beta...what happened you are silent?" Papa asked me in a concern tone but before I could respond,Raghav said

" papa she is leaving us tomorrow so she sad that I won't be with her...naaaaa di"
Everyone left out a chuckle while I just smiled lightly. This is me. I talk a lot but once I am sad or angry, I automatically go silent and to light up my mood I need books. They help a lot in diverting My Mind from useless Overthinking.

Even though I was with my family,my mind was somewhere else.His voice is echoing in my brain continously.

"𝘔𝘢𝘪 𝘩𝘶 𝘯𝘢"

"𝘎𝘩𝘢𝘳 𝘫𝘢𝘰,𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦"

"𝘒𝘪𝘵𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘩𝘵𝘪 𝘩𝘰"

"𝘔𝘴.𝘚𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘦𝘳"

"𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘶𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴"

I quickly shut my eyes to get rid of this but there too...I see his smiling face leaning towards me.

"Ahhhh" I yelled as everyone looked at me with wide eyes.
I don't want to create any more melodrama so I just made an excuse of not feeling well and came to my room.