Linstead - Always

Chapter 38

Chapter 38: Home

"Many times in life you will be afraid, being afraid is normal, but if you do not face this fear you run the risk of losing a lot of beautiful things."

- One tree hill

He couldn't sleep, his mind kept thinking that Charlotte almost died, in fact she actually died, twice. A 4 year old child died twice. Her baby, it was hard for him to reason that out, especially since he had her dead body in his hands. He couldn't sleep and didn't want to, he was afraid of the nightmares, afraid of her reaction.

He thinks about how strange life is, he wasn't Charlotte's biological father, he had no blood relationship with that girl and he wouldn't stop to think twice when it came to putting his own life in the line of fire, he wouldn't I could breathe just imagining losing her, but then her biological father put her in that situation. The father who was supposed to take care of her, had no problem drugging a baby, had no problem putting a knife to his own daughter's neck and when they fell he didn't bother to get her out of the water.

His fiancée was crying about losing her babies, she was blaming herself for something she wasn't responsible for, she had no control over her body and so that bastard was able to be their worst nightmare, be his daughter's worst nightmare and not that he was surprised by it, he worked with it, he was used to it, but even so it would be something about the human being that he would never understand. The cruelty that people were willing to do to others was something he would never understand.

- Can't you sleep? - Lindsay whispers.

- No... - he whispers back and opens his arms, letting her settle in his arms. - I thought you were sleeping.

- I can't, when I close my eyes everything comes back. - she says and he understands. - That has always been my fear, fear of losing her, fear of losing everything I have.

- I know. I understand you, but we need to stop thinking about it. Because she is here. It's with us.

- Yes... - she lets out a deep breath. - I wish the bed was bigger.

- Me too... - he smiles at her. - Do you want me to go to the other bed and put her here with you?

-No, she needs to rest and I want to stay in her arms, I feel safer. - she says and he kisses the top of her head. - Bryan, did they catch him? - she says angrily.

- Yes... - she didn't know anything and he didn't need to tell her everything. - He's here at the hospital.

- He is here? - she says irritated.

- Yes, he was admitted with hypothermia too. - Jay says and she looks at him.

- You saw him? - he just nods. - What did you do?

- No big deal, they stopped me, I was going to kill him.

- Jay...

- I was going to kill him, I just won't go down and kill him for Charlotte, but I want to kill him Erin.

- You won't, at least not here Jay. You know there will be no way out if they catch you. - Erin doesn't mind going against the rules, if he was in prison, they wouldn't have any problem going against the books.

- I know. Tomorrow we will have to give our statements, I asked Atwater to inform me about what they can find, I will try to stay on the case. - she nods. It would be difficult, but they could investigate from the outside as well. - Is there anything about him I need to know? - Jay asks.

- Nothing I haven't already told you. He was being wanted. His name is Bryan Patrick Roberts.

- Let's start with this tomorrow. Let's not think about him now. He tries to sleep. - Jay kisses her and she nods. She turns to look at her daughter.