Diary of an OFW in Macau

May 7, 2024 - Recently Unpleasants

5:57pm - Anty give me a bed and a 300 MOP boarding fee. Phew. Finally. I didn't mind staying at the sala area at the boarding but I prefer a space. Last time I wanted to speak but there are no open beds so I didn't voice it out. Now it's great. Yey ✌️. Anty did say it's cause her direct niece Galen says it's unfair that I don't pay. Well, I really wouldn't pay had I not have a bed. I have been checking for a place to stay on Facebook but has yet to find a suitable bunker. 😅 This is good. This is the best. I'm really not good at socializing with relatives. I feel constraint and very much unfree. I am a social butterfly when it's with strangers though. Haha.

So, now I am thinking over what to prepare and do with my bed. This means I need money. Which means I will have less cash this month and the coming month. Aigoo. I have yet to come back from sending 12k to angud cause of his gf ectopic pregnancy. Tsk. I am now regretting it. That much would have settled my debt a lot. It's almost my year end boarding fee at home. I'm still keeping my small place there. I send the boarding fee to mom to pay the landlady. Hopefully the fee won't go up in the near future. Well, it would once the old landlady dies and the daughter would take over. That's a given. It's always been that way. Also I'm contemplating much over how to distribute my salary. I very much would like to spend it all but I have to think of my future. I would prefer retiring early on my 40s so I am looking for retirement insurances. The ones offered by ate Cass are not budget friendly and I don't quite trust her over that. I spent 90k buying an insurance which I can't even use. It's just iffing shitty that I figure it's useless when I already paid for 5 years. Tsk. What a dumb luck. I never was lucky but that's really one shitty decision. How regretful. I am about done with my sss but I still would continue paying it. I just want to know how to increase my retirement pension but mom is shit. Tsk. Oh right. I should let batsalan ask instead. That is IF he really go. Aigoo. So much trouble. Well, it won't hurt to ask. I found sunlife mutual funds and gcash goals insurance. I should try them. Gcash is to be paid for 2 years which is good. Sunlife . . . I still have not received any response to them. But I would still buy mutual funds. I have to study which are good to me first though. I can't save and save. That's not effective especially towards inflation. So I am looking for investment areas. It's hard though. I'm in the era of capitalism so it's really hard to know any good ones and if I do find out I can't afford them. Tsk. How frustrating 🤪😤😓

Well, I could still work for a decade so I shouldn't stress myself rushing. This is bad habit. <inner peace> <inner peace> 

11:59pm - over the couple of nights, I am having a bad time getting to sleep. Also my aches have multiplied. My wrist was sprained last February and has yet to heal. Then my leg got twisted last Sunday and I had a hard time adjusting the muscle nerves to get it right but it still feels painful to walk at times. And just yesterday my left shoulder got a not so good twist. Like a stiff neck. I applied efficascent oil which I still smell during my bath. It still hurts. I even take in Advil ibuprofen. Gosh, I had a bloody headache yesterday noon and got a slight fever this morning. Still it's doable. But I want to have a check up. This isnt normal anymore. I need to check my body if this sprains would lead to serious issues.  But I don't trust the Chinese hospital. More so I may not be able to afford it. And there's no clinic here where I can go have a check up. So I am saving up for my vacation. But that still on December which is quite months away. Oh my aches. They are killing mem it's ok if it's bones. I can reset them. But muscles are different. Besides I can't massage myself so this is bad.