Alex's POV
"Alex come on lets go, It's freshman's night hindi ka ba lalabas?"
Hindi ako bumangon at tiningnan lang si Antonia. "Dito lang ako masakit ang ulo ko."
"Hay naku, ang introvert mo talaga. Ang dami pa namang gwapo sa engineering department ngayon."
Tumalikod ako ng higa at hindi pinansin ang sinabi nya.
"Sige aalis na ako. Hindi ako matutulog dito mamaya. Bye."
30 minutes ng nakaalis si Antonia pero nakatulala parin ako at nakatingin sa pader, gusto kong matulog pero hindi ako makatulog.
Bumangon ako at kinuha ang susi ng kotse saka nagbihis at nagsuot ng white shirt, tattered jeans, denim jacket at red cap.
I drove to my cousin's tattoo shop.
"Long time no see cuz." Bati ng pinsan kong si Zam ng makapasok ako.
"Busy?" I saw 3 male customer and her 2 assistant.
"Hindi naman, tapos na ako. Bakit?" Tinanggal nya ang gloves at nagpunas ng kamay.
I sit and crossed my legs. "Pwede mo ba akong samahan?"
"Saan?"
"Just wanna chill."
"Sure. Iinom ba tayo?" She excitedly asked.
"Yeah."
We just buy drinks and drove to a nearby view deck. We sat in a foldable chair and looked at the city lights.
"Care to share?" Zam said while opening a can of beer.
I looked down. "Can I?"
"Of course. May problema ba?"
I took a deep breath before drinking a beer and looked down again.
"Ok ka lang Alex?"
I didn't answer and just keep looking down. My deep thoughts is killing me.
It's been five weeks.
"Come on tell me, hindi ako sanay na makita kang ganyan. Don't worry you can share everything with me."
"I feel empty." Malungkot akong ngumiti. "I'm so tired of thinking."
"Then don't think about it."
"Kung ganun lang sana ka simpley." Tumingala ako sa langit. "Did you ever miss someone so bad?"
So bad that you want to run so fast to forget those thoughts.
"Are you broken hearted?" Masaya pa yata ang pinsan ko sa narinig. "Oh my, finally you open your heart for someone."
Wrong. I still haven't opened my heart for someone.
I still haven't cared about other people's feelings.
Yet, that brat girl is strangely messing with my mind.
Her smile, her eyes, her touch, her kiss, her hug, her stubborness, I can't forget it and it keeps running through my mind.
I hate this feeling.
"I don't know what to do." I'm really confused right now.
Dapat maging masaya ako dahil wala ng Maxine na gumugulo sa buhay ko.
Wala na rin kahit text at tawag. I will finally live peacefully.
But as days goes by, I slowly realized and asked myself, has she really stopped?
