Execution Dressed in Black ( Stray Kids Mafia AU Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

Han's P.O.V.

All I wanted to do was soothe her worries, to show her the beauty I see in her, and everything good. But what he did to her was horrible. Walking in on that was traumatizing as it was, but to be in her shoes is a completely different story. I couldn't handle it either, but Minho and I had an arrangement with each other. But for him to take it out on her, I should have gone to him faster. Maybe she would have been safer. Just maybe this would never have happened.

It shouldn't have happened in the first place, it was all my fault for not being there. It should have been me there in her place, I could handle it by our agreement. But she wasn't a part of that, which made me even more mad about it. As more anger boiled in me, I just showed a calmer aura, to keep her sobbing form from getting worse. My fingers ran through her knotted hair. I sighed softly. "Hey.. Come here follow me... Sit right here for a moment." I said pointing at the ground next to my bed, placing a few of my softest pillows layered in the spot as I got up going into my bathroom and picking up my spare brush, as I walked back to my bed sitting behind her gently, to not scare her more.

Once I was seated comfortably, I softly started to brush the tangled knots out of her hair. I tried to be as gentle as I could, but I still heard her whimper every once in a while, I don't know if it was because the knots hurt, or she was still crying. So I did the only thing I could think of, at the moment. I softly started to sing as I brushed the knots out of her hair, trying my best to soothe her.

" I'll protect you it's okay to hurt
I'll embrace the wounds you shed
To me, you're already a sin
You're already a sin (Yeah)

Light it up for me, brighter, more, please
Light it up for me more brightly, even the dark night
Doesn't scare me if I'm with you
Even if I've seen it a hundred times, I still lack so much
The scars of the wounds that covered my heart
As if only you could notice them
You were so warm when you hugged me tight
I guess I teared up for a moment,
Because it was the first time

I'll protect you it's okay to hurt
I'll embrace the wounds you shed
To me, you're already a sin
I can't refuse because you're sweeter than evil
You can burst into flames,
You can wound me next to you
If you like, I can be anything
Yeah, you can hurt me,
I don't care, yeah, you can burn me
Unlike those who run away from you,
I'll embrace you

Like a volcano
Love at a temperature that can melt when touched
Take me to you, way below to the end of the ground
It's okay if everything burns down
Even if I go back hundreds of times,
My choice is always

So I can melt into you
Hug my body even if it hurts, it's okay
 Among the cold and harsh waves
I need your heat you are my volcano

I'm the drought, you're rain,
I'm paper, you're a poem
Your attention changes the brightness of
My empty heart, you're light
Your arms, my home, my breath, my God
You grabbed me when I was falling fly again
My falling days were sorrow
But after you appeared my lifted
Mouth corners won't come down
Why, why, why, don't wanna go back, back, back
To you, who shines the brightest among others
I'll give you everything
Every day, every day, every day I can feel you
Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, I can't wait
Wondering how your smile will brighten
And make me laugh this time

I'll protect you it's okay to hurt
I'll embrace the wounds you shed
To me, you're already a sin
I can't refuse because you're sweeter than evil
You can burst into flames,
You can wound me next to you
If you like, I can be anything
Yeah, you can hurt me,
I don't care, yeah, you can burn me
Unlike those who run away from you,
I'll embrace you

Like a volcano
Love at a temperature that can melt when touched
Take me to you, way below to the end of the ground
It's okay if everything burns down
Even if I go back hundreds of times,
My choice is always

I can't live without you you're the only one, even if I die
Even if I'm reborn over and over again, it's only you
I want to give only to you my heart is burning
When I'm thinking of you, my mind is

Like a volcano
Love at a temperature that can melt when touched
Take me to you, way below to the end of the ground
It's okay if everything burns down
Even if I go back hundreds of times
My choice is always

So I can melt into you
Hug my body even if it hurts, it's okay
(Woah) Among the cold and harsh waves
I need your heat you are my volcano"

I sighed softly finishing singing the knots now gone from her hair as I continued to brush regardless, starting to find it calming. Her whimpering and sniffles had died down slightly as she returned to her soft breathing, only to suddenly turn to me, her eyes softly wide. I smiled softly confused before the next words out of her mouth shocked me. "You sing..wait no no.. Your voice sounds so familiar when you sing, like it is softer but I feel like...I have heard it in a more of a rougher vocal setting before.." She says, and my eyes widen as I hope she doesn't know. "Where though..." She seems to be searching her mind. "Pshhh...nah. I don't sing often, that was just...just.. um..." I tried to think of an excuse, as I suddenly couldn't come up with one. 

"What was it called... It was a group I think.." She mutters as she looks down at the ground thinking. My heart was racing as I stared at her with wide eyes. Hoping she doesn't piece it together, Chan and Changbin would kill me for revealing we were 3racha, the anonymous rap trio. But also hoped she would, so I could at least have one person who knew my passion, but regret filled me as she looked back up. A look of realization in her eyes, and a sudden feeling of overwhelming anxiety filled me at how this could play out. 

"Y..your part of the anonymous hip hop group on that music platform...are you...Han.." She mutters looking at me. I don't say anything not wanting to confirm anything, but I also can't deny it because I hate liars. What do I do? Oh Fuck. What do I do now!!! "What was their name... S..sriracha? No that's a hot sauce...Fuck..what was their name... OH!!!! OMG, YOUR APART OF 3RACHA!!!!" She got vocally louder as she spoke, which made me flinch as I stared at her. I quickly covered her mouth. I hushed her as I stared over at the door, waiting to see if anyone entered. But no one did. 

So I looked back at her and uncovered her mouth, "Shhh, Sora, you can't tell anyone... We are anonymous for a reason. We are a group of individuals, that have done bad things, to bad people... Our music.. is our one escape from our reality. You can't tell a soul you know I am apart of that group. Not Chan, Not Hyunjin, Nor Felix, nor anyone here... It is our secret, alright?" I whispered looking from her to the door. Her eyes widened at my seriousness. But she nodded accepting. "Your secret..is safe with me, Hannie.." She smiled softly before her arms wrapped around me in a soft hug.