Just love me √│Boyxboy

Chapter 5 ⚠️ 🩷

Ayden's POV:

I was currently flicking through my tv channels with Lucian asleep on my chest. After a while of being friends with Lucian I've come to learn that Lucian is quite the affectionate type.. Especially when he's asleep
Occasionally I would feel him paw at my sweatshirt trying to get into a more comfortable position which is like the cutest thing I've ever seen him do. I caught myself staring at him, his long eyelashes fluttering randomly, his Black curls falling over his face, and his rosy pink lips he just looked so..calm I just wanted to...

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I Rushed towards my twin sisters room knocking on the door rapidly after she didn't awnser the first time I knock harder

"Jesus what the hell do you want?" She asked annoyed but then when she saw the look on my face she started to look worried "wait what's wrong?"

"I need to talk to you." I said hurriedly looking behind her "And alone."

"I'll be back Emori give me a couple of minutes." I heard her tell her best friend and close her door i dragged her by her hand and rushed towards the backyard to sit at one of the tables.

"What's wrong?" My sister repeated staring me directly in my eye I hesitated and looked away from her

"Uh- How did you..um." I said trying to find the right words she looked at me expectedly

"Yeah?? Spit it out Ayden." She rushed

I gulp "How'd you know you were..uh Lesbian? " catching her off guard she gave me a weird look obviously not expecting that type of question

"Uh well I guess I've always just knew." She says "I was never attracted to any male so one time when I was 15 I experimented with this guy and I realized guy's are just not my thing." She finished with a shrug then gave me a look that said why did I need to know this I shrug at her

"Wait do you think your gay or something?" She asked staring at me surprised I wanted to deny it and yell at her that she was wrong that I had a girlfriend that I loved very much but I just.. Couldn't. I sat there frozen for about 2 minutes before she spoke up again

"Your in love with Lucian, aren't you?" She said slowly I snap my head up at her

"What? No!" I said a little to defensively

She squinted at me "but you like him, yeah?" I stay quiet for a couple of seconds

"I don't know.." I shifted uncomfortably I mean I know I loved Lucian but have I been confusing my love for him as platonic love? This is so frustrating. At first I was so sure I was in love with Ashley but now I don't even know anymore .

"So what are you gonna do?" She asked

"I don't know." I repeated

if Lucian ever found out I liked him he would go ballistic he's had sex with more females than ME meaning he's like the straightest guy I know and even if he was gay he doesn't do relationships, like ever. You can say Lucian's quite the hypersexual person he's only there for the pleasure- no strings attached.

"You have to pick one." She crossed her arms over her chest "you do know that right?"

"What do you mean pick one?" I gave her a confused look "I'm obviously staying with Ashley even if I wanted to leave her for him Lucian's straight and it doesn't matter it's just a crush that'll pass over in like less than a week or I'm probably just stressed with all of the Ashley stuff and it's making me think I like him." As I say that she snickers at me and looks at me like I'm dumb

"What?" I asked starting to feel self-conscious as she stared at me

"You're just so dense Ayden." She shook her head at me