Red Letter Days

Chapter 11: "The Catalyst"

Dedicated to: MysHoSciFiPanFanFic
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(At the school)

Jhon's POV

"Yo, bro..long time no look. Anyare sayo?" Tanong ni Kurth saakin.

Nasa classroom kami, first period.

"Okay ka lang ba?" Tanong ni Felix.

"Na miss mo tuloy yung victory party." Sabi naman ni Kevin.

"I'm just...busy."

"Busy?..baka naman nagpa-party ka dyan na hindi kami invited ha?.hmp!" (Kevin)

*sigh* "Maya nalang tayo mag-usap guys...kailangan ko pang basahin 'tong libro."

"Para-paraan...ahahaha!" (Kurth)

"Just shut the fuck up pwede?!..you're here for like five minutes and you're like a freakin' a.m. radio you fuckin' shit!!!"

I don't know why I just did that but as soon as I realized that I snapped, I grabbed my things and just walk out of the room.

"Jhon!...wait a sec!"

Hinabol naman ako ni Felix.

"Just leave me alone."

"Bro...ano'ng problema?"

"It's nothing."

Tumigil ako nang makarating sa bench at naupo. Dahan-dahan naman na lumapit si Felix at naupo sa tabi ko.

"Is it about Kerby?..is she alright?"

"Hindi...hindi sya okay...hindi na."

"I see...sorry."

"M-Mahal ko sya Felix...sabihin mo saakin?..paano nangyari yun?..bakit sakanya pa?..b-bakit hindi nalang sa kung sino dyan na walang expiration date ang buhay?!..gosh I hate it!..a-ang sakit!..a-ayoko na...ang dami-dami nang nangyayari sa buhay ko na hindi ko gusto!..ayoko na!"

"J-Just calm down bro...it's okay."

Hinawakan nya ako sa balikat habang umiiyak na parang bata na nawalan ng candy.

"N-No it's not okay...It's not okay to saw your family falls apart...it's not okay to just sit there doing nothing but watching the girl that you love losing hope...and I'm never gonna be okay wondering kung paano ko sana sya minahal kung nabuhay sya."

"Baka naman...may pag-asa parin...malay mo...gumaling sya. Hindi imposible yun."

"So I'm just gonna wait for that stupid miracle while she's dying slowly?.. Ganun ba?..walang himala Felix. Kasi kung meron man, hindi sana sya nawalan ng pag-asa hanggang ngayon."

"You know, I can't argue with that for some reasons...but someday.. It's gonna make sense."
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Our life is a never ending battle agains tragedy. It's a matter of choices not fate. It's about the lost and stumble not destiny.

Everything has its reason and every victory has its purpose. We are just people who are stupid enough to think that life has its supernatural power to control us but the truth is, we own the switch. We are the writer of our own story and it's up to us if how it will going to end. The things that we question the most are just results of our doing...his doing...or her doing.

My friend have a point there. Someday it will all make sense but of course, I'm just a human being.

I'm stupid.
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That same day, umalis ako ng paaralan. Naglakad-lakad...baka sakaling dalhin ako ng mga paa ko sa isang payapang lugar.