All I need is my irish girl 🍀

✫mirror, mirror on the wall✫

CW/TW:
-cybermobbing
-comments on body
-self doubt
-insecurities!
Read with caution!

As I was out with Sorscha today we took some pictures, now we are back at home again.
There is this one picture and I love it more than anything! That is why I decided to post it on my social media. I rarely post anything but I thought this is a nice occassion to do so. I obviously tag Sorscha and capture it with: "A lovely night out with the most perfect girlfriend <3"
And post! I put my phone down again and walk over to the sofa and jump right into Sorschas arms with a loud giggle. She herself starts to laugh loudly and holds me tight. "Pretty girls do seem to fly out of the sky, huh? Hello my precious, perfect girl."

I giggle and happily cuddle up as we watch the movie we picked together.
I cuddle up and almost forget about the picture, my world just being good and peaceful.
Not one single bad thought crosses my mind. And I enjoy that. Our finals are written and now we just wait for the results to come in. But neither Sorscha nor I are really anxious. We both studied very hard for them. And we know it'll pay off very soon. She can start in the nursery here and I got offered a place at the city hospital.
Sorscha wraps her arms around me and kisses my head, she knows how much I love that and that I instantly melt at her signs of pure affection.

She then gets in the bathroom to get ready for bed. She needs to get up early tomorrow for her results coming back.
While she is in the bathroom I check on my socials and see 13 new comments! That never happened before! I click on my post and see 6 likes but the comments!
I smile and open them. The first one being from Sorscha: "My perfect looking future wife! I love you xx"
I smile happily and like her comment, pinning it on top.
Then I read through the rest: "If I wouldn't know she is with a woman I'd say she is pregnant."
Ouch... that hurt, but it is only one. What does 'le0n1005' know anyway? He probably had a bad day.

I keep on reading, knowing fully well I shouldn't. "Those legs are thicker than those from an elephant." I look down, but I actually like my legs... are they too fat?
I get caught up by another comment "Her hair looks like a bird nest and she seems like a nun with that cut, if I'd be her girlfriend, I would cut it off." That one really hurt me. My hair was the one thing people always liked about me.
There are even more comments with this content. One about my lips being too thin, my eyes too green and unnatural and my body is just the form of a bag.
"Sorscha could do so much better than that seal."
That is enough for me.

Sorscha is in our bedroom by now, waiting for me to join in.
I stand infront of the mirror. I look at myself up and down. The full body mirror not helping my self image at the moment. I start pulling on my belly. It truly is way too thick... I should eat less.
I look at my eyes. Yes, they look like I faked them. The forest green touch seems like the one of a swamp.
I try to push out my lips more, suck in my belly to the point I shake and it hurts. And then about my hair. They are right. It looks like a birds nest. I already have the scissors in my hand as I hear Sorscha
knocking softly.

"Mo stoirín? You've been in there for a long time already. May I come in?"
I know I need her right now and that is why I allow her to step in.
She stands there. Seeing me with my sucked in belly, the tears on my cheeks, the puffed out lips and the scissors on my hair.
I instantly drop it and she pulls me tight against herself. "Hey... hey my love? What happened? Why did you want to cut off your beautiful, soft and perfectly healthy hair?" She carefully strokes through it and places a little peck on the top of my head. "I don't like it. It is ugly."
She looks confused because everyone knows, that I am really proud of my hair.

"Your hair is not ugly! I looks so wonderful, honestly, just like a sunflower. The brown with the blonde highlights! I love it so much, and the length makes you look so professional, so pretty." She kisses my head again.
"T..thank... you...." I let out a quiet sob and look up.
"And your lips?" She strokes over them softly.
"They are way too thin!! You can't even feel them while kissing!"
She pulls me into a deep and lovibg kiss "All I feel is the soft skin of my girlfriends lips. Which are made for mine. They belong together for the rest of our lives love." She looks at me as if she wants to be sure that I am actually listening to her.

"You read those comments, didn't you? And they put my girl down like that... Darling... these trolls have no idea. All they know is hate. Now please stop sucking in your belly... I can already see you shaking. And it doesn't look healthy. Your belly is supposed to be out. There are your organs, do you think they like to be squished inside?"
I shake my head, her words are wrapping me up in a soft blanket out comfort. I stick out my belly again and she smiles, leaning down to kiss all around it. "Your belly could carry and grow a child! It is wonderful, honestly it is the best thing." I smile widely. No matter what the world says. Sorscha loves real me.

"And do you know what we'll do now? We will not let that comments stop us, okay?? You will come with me now and we will snuggle in bed.
All of those comments are just a display of their jealousy. The person commenting on your eyes wishes to have green eyes, which look like a light flooded forest. The one coming at you because of your 'thin lips' has huge ones and wants them to be smaller. And the one saying, I deserve better. They just want to be with you since their marriage is not going well anymore. You are the best person I ever met. You are the reason so many people feel hope again! You are the founder of a school club!"

I smile and nod. "You are right. I am more than enough for you. And as long as you love me, I don't need any one elses approval. You are everything I need... And I am happy to have you. Thank you for always keeping me safe. You are my sunshine. The brightest!" I kiss her deeply and hug her softly "I don't care about those haters. I love that picture! And I will not put it down. For no one but myself."
Sorscha smiles widely and kisses me. "I am proud of you my love. And now..." she picks me up and cuddles me in her arms. "Into the bedroom and cuddleing until we fall asleep in each others arms."
I nod and smile.
"Good night, babe. I love you!!"
"Good night, mo sroirín,
I love you too!"

A/N:
Hey people! If you struggle with any of this, the comments in real life or online, believe me, most of the people are jealous little witches. Who mostly have very much own insecurities, and you shouldn't take their comments to heart!
If you need someone, feel free to reach out!!

This idea came from RubyCareless3 ^^
I hope I displayed it like you hoped I would!

Be safe,
theLesbianBean <3