caraphernelia ◇ bts | suga

{ 05 }

It seemed that after he kissed her, she was more than just distant. Leila had completely disappeared. He still saw her around, but she acted as if he didn't exist. Then a week later, she packed her bags. He had offered to bring her to the airport but she declined.

"You don't even own a car," she had said, "It'll just be a waste of time and energy." And with those words, she left. Out of sight, but not out of mind.

What was he doing?

It had been a week since she left, but he still expected her to come to his apartment every night. Sometimes he would wait on the couch at midnight, then suddenly it's morning and still he was alone. It was foolish of him, but what else was he supposed to do when the memory of her drove him to the edge?

Tonight, his mind was racing with thoughts of her. How is Leila doing now? Does she remember him? Is she ever coming back?

He asked himself the questions he could not find the answer to, but he missed the most important question: Did he really mean something to her?

Those last words he heard her speak were harsh, as if she wasn't just speaking of dropping her off at the airport. When she she told him that she was leaving, he had guessed that the reason behind it was her parents. She had mentioned them quite a lot, how they seemed to take control of her life. They were the reason she left. Not once did it ever cross his mind that maybe there was something else. He thought he knew enough to believe that she wouldn't lie to him.

But what did he know? They would talk about their lives but just as things got deep she would change the topic. She had a way with words, speaking so seamlessly that Yoongi barely noticed the shift in topic. He never realized how good she was at avoiding things until now.

He lied on his bed, staring up at the plain white ceiling as his mind raced with jumbled thoughts. It was amazing how he opened up to her so much, yet he hadn't noticed how closed off she was. Yoongi had told her almost everything in his story, but what exactly did he know of hers? Nothing but bits of puzzle pieces that he thought he had put together.

The sound of his phone ringing brought him out of his thoughts. It was a message from one of his friends, asking if he wanted to hang out. He wanted to ignore the message and just stay locked up in his room, but he knew that wouldn't do him any good. After typing a quick reply, he got up and prepared himself for the day out.

He had just gotten into the bathroom and turned on the lights when something sitting by the sink caught his eye. The little bottle of cologne didn't look familiar at all. It was a surprise that he had only just noticed it at that moment. He picked it up and examined it carefully before taking a whiff of the scent.

It took a while for his mind to process why it smelled familiar and as soon as he realized the bottle slipped from his fingers. The fragrant liquid spilled out of the bottle and Yoongi muttered a curse under his breath. The smell didn't spread out in the confined room but as he knelt down to clean up the spill he couldn't help but be reminded of her.

It was hers. This was her scent. He was sure of it. He wouldn't usually pay attention to these little things but for some reason he remembered this. On the days when she hadn't been close to alcohol--which was quite often-- this was how he remembered she smelled like. Not like that night he kissed her when she smelled of soju, but like that afternoon when the two of them sat on his couch and played her favorite game of 20 Questions. It was the scent that was left on his pillow when she left. The blanket, the covers. Laundry day came and he was forced to throw away those reminders. But here it was.

Something tugged at his chest and his lips couldn't seem to decide on whether he should smile or not.

a/n: wooooowwwww i feel like i did a crappy job with this chapter so i am sorry for that. also im not so active here on wattpad these days bc school but i will still try to update. i'll work on I Like You and maybe Hurricane after i post this chapter so watch out for them.. :)