counting the stars and scars

~chapter 3~

*Kellin's POV*
"Want anything?" I quietly ask Vic. I've never had anyone come over to my house before, so this is all new to me.
"No I'm fine, thank you." He responds, giving me a little smile. His eyes flutter closed and open again, like he was thinking about something intense. Fuck that's cute. He turned toward the microphone in the corner. "You sing?"
"Not in front of people, and only when I'm home alone, but yeah. I sing."
"Why don't you sing in front of people?"
"I'm embarrassed, and I'm scared of rejection. It's fine though, choir is really all I need."
He gives me a little nod like he completely understands, and then goes over to the mic, picking it up and plugging it in. "Your dad's sleeping right?"
No. He's probably getting drunk at a bar. "Yeah. He works graveyard until about 10am, so he usually just sleeps until late in the afternoon.Lie, lie, lie, and lie. That's what Mom had to do.
"Ok. Then you can sing." He turns on the mic and gives it to my shaking hands.
"What? I-I don't want to sing in front of you." I'm shaking like a leaf and my stutter is back, like it always does when I'm really nervous.
"Kellin, it's fine. After this I'll sing in front of you, something I really do not like doing. I know you'll be great. Why else would your dad have bought you this microphone?" I notice he didn't say parents, he just said dad. I presume that was because I didn't mention a mother, and I didn't correct him. God, he reads me like a book.
"Vic, I really don't want to. Please." A little sharp whimper escapes my throat, and I call myself stupid for acting like a pussy.
"I'll tell you what, if I sing in front of you first, you'll sing after me. Alright?" I can tell he really wants to hear me sing, and honestly I want to hear him too, so I agree. He goes up, clears his throat and starts singing.
We talk too much
We talk in circles
Till we're all spinning 'round
Reaching for it, in this merry go round

The scenery spent
We call it progress
I've seen this all before
When all said is done,
We wake up on the floor

We set sail with no fixed star in sight
We drive by rail in candle light

We're building towers, with no foundation.
We're stacking stone on stone,
Whatever it takes
Mix our mortar with bones

True progress means, matching the world to
The vision in our heads
We always change
the vision instead.

We set sail with no fixed star in sight.
We drive by rail and candle light.
As he sang the last note, I just look at him from my bed with pure adoration and sentiment. I feel a sting in my eyes and realize I am crying. Shit. I quickly wipe the saltwater from my face and just stare at him some more. Finally he says "So was it good?"
"Of fucking course it was good! Holy shit how am I going to follow that? That was amazing." I take a deep breath and tell myself I have balls, not a pussy. "What was that song anyway?"
He had been smiling since I started fangirling, and he didn't stop. "Circles by Thrice. The acoustic version of course. It's actually accompanied by a piano so if we ever have an assignment like that in choir, I know what we'll be doing." He paused. "Now it's your turn."
I had been so entranced by Vic's singing that I completely forgot I have to sing too. I instantly start shaking. "Uh... oh... um... right... yeah."
*Vic's POV*
"Don't be nervous. You'll do great. You don't even have to sing a full song."
"Ok." He replied and shakily walked up to where I had put the mic. He looks so small and fragile right now. I love it, however sick that sounds.
He grabs the mic, holding it tightly between his smooth hands. He clears his throat and takes a breath, but nothing came out. "Just take your time. You'll be great. And even if you sing like a four year old on crack I'll still love you."
*Kellin's POV*
"...I'll still love you." Holy shit, did he just say he loves me? Don't be stupid Kellin, no one loves you. He just said it. Well, I guess he loves you then, you idiot.
I clear my head as I think of a song to sing. I let the title come to my mind on its own. I finally think of a song I had loved since it first came out. Shadow Of The Day by Linkin Park. I gather up all the courage I have in me, and begin to sing.
I close both locks below the window
I close both blinds and turn away
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way
And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you
In cards and flowers on your window
Your friends all plead for you to stay
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye's the only way
And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey
And the sun will set for you
I sing the last note and look over at Vic. I couldn't bring myself to look at him for the entire song. I didn't want to make it weird. He is just staring at me with his beautiful chocolate brown eyes. God he's perfect. I wonder what he's thinking. After what seems like 5 minutes I start to worry. Oh no was I that bad?
Suddenly, Vic rises up off my bed and walks over to me. He moves the microphone so he can stand in front of me without anything between us. He just looks into my core, passion and devotion vehement on his face. He opens his mouth as if to say something but then closes it. He glances down at my lips and drops his head to look at our feet. We are standing so close to each other I can feel his warmth. All I want to do is wrap my arms around him and kiss him. He abruptly turns his head back up to look at me...
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all songs are to thrice and to linkin park soooo