counting the stars and scars

~chapter 4~

*Vic's POV*
"And the sun will set for you..."
His voice during that song was so unimaginably beautiful, so pure, so perfect. He is the most perfect person I have seen in my entire life. He is amazing. As all of these thoughts come into my head I don't bother to fight them down. I know in my heart, my soul, my being, my very essence that he is the boy I want to be with. He is it. There will be no more searching, no more wondering. I've found him.
I stand up and walk over to him. He smells like deodorant and candy canes. That just makes me want him even more. His eyes are so perfectly blue. They remind me of the sky on the clearest day. I am just about to kiss him, but I lose my nerve. I look down and try to gather my courage. This isn't my first kiss, but I don't have much experience, so I'm really nervous. Ok, here we go Vic. I look back up at him and slide my arms on his hips. It takes him by surprise but, much to my relief, he doesn't back away. He runs his hand up and down my right arm, making me shiver at the touch. His hands rest looped around my torso, his fingers rubbing up and down slowly. God damn he's amazing. I start moving my thumbs in circles on his hips. He pulls me closer and closer until we're practically on each others' feet. I look up at his beautiful big eyes and lean in a little. He does the same, and our lips connect with a passionate spark. After a few seconds, we break apart and just hug. We just stand there hugging and nuzzling each other's necks for what seems like hours, but not long enough. After a while, Kellin takes my hand and leads me over to the bed. He goes to his closet and pulls out two pairs of pajama shorts. "You're sleeping over" He says, more like demands. I don't mind it one bit. I pull out my cell phone and text Mike some shitty lie about Choir homework and he replies with a winky face. I just roll my eyes and throw my phone on the ground. I decide to change when Kellin goes off to the bathroom.
When he comes back, he has no clothes on but a pair of shorts and presumably, boxers. Damn. He is skinny, but not too skinny, and he has the faint outline of abs when he moves. I, however, leave everything to imagination. I'm wearing a thin long-sleeved shirt and the shorts Kellin gave me to wear. "You're not into showing skin are you?" Kellin asks me, scanning my clothes with his eyes. "Not really. I'm just more comfortable when I have a lot of clothes on." I try to keep things vague, but I feel like spilling my guts out to him. He's the first person in a while I've felt like trusting, so I don't want to ruin things. "Ok Victor." He smiles weakly at me, as if he's thinking deeply. "Come here." Once again, he takes my hand and leads me to the bed. He pulls me down with him onto the soft sheets, holding me against his chest and keeping his hold on my hand while I get settled in. Within minutes, I am asleep. *Kellin's POV* God, please, don't let Vic be a cutter. I look down at the beautiful boy in my arms and my eyes prick up with tears. He is too beautiful. I only suspect something because through this whole day, he hasn't let his left arm show. His arm is now wrapped around my stomach. I have the urge to pull back his shirt sleeve and see for myself if he is or not, but then my conscious tells me it's an "invasion of privacy". The rest of me agrees too, though; he'll tell me if he is when he's ready. ***The Next Morning*** "Hey, darling." Vic's chin is resting on my chest, his eyes locked on my face. His hair is all messed up, his eyes have slight dark bags under it, and they are even more brown if that's possible. He looks so beautiful. I lean in and kiss him quickly. "What was that for?" He asks. I just laugh. "For being beautiful." I look at the time and realize we're already late for school. "Shit." Vic returns that saying when he looks at the time too. I give him one of my shirts to wear, and we both get dressed. I try to sneak a look at his left arm, but he put all his bracelets on before putting on my shirt. Damn. I really hope he isn't a cutter.