I Wish She Knew

Jesse

Becas POV
I knew that was Jesse from a mile away, what's that prick doing in the girls dorms anyway? I just don't understand that kid.
"Jesse fuck off" I shouted, Chloe looked at me with a angry look, I shook my head, "Chloe please don't say anything" I whispered, she nodded slightly,
"BeCAW" he shouted from outside my door, I shivered in fear, I couldn't let Chloe or Jesse know I'm scared though, Jesse please leave me alone I love Chloe, I thought to my self,
"Beca I love you, I really do, and you body against my body, the way you squirm like you don't really want it even though you do like oh my gosh beca be my girlfriend" Jesse spoke once again. I started erring tears to build up in my eyes remembering what happene that night..
Flash back
Me and Jesse just finished our shift at the radio station, but I needed to take something round the back to the dumpsters, as I was walking round I felt a large hand grab my ass, I jumped round in shock, "oh my gosh Jesse what was that!?" I asked, "come on beca don't play hard to get" he said in a seductive tone, I shook my head an walked backwards only to hit a wall, fuck.
"Beca I want you on me, I want to be inside of you baby" he said takin my head in to his hand and my arse in his other hand as he sucked on to my neck, I squirmed and wriggle for dear life, but I got nowhere, "Jesse stop" I said in fear, he ignored me and moved me hand from my arse down into my jeans and pass my underware, he began to finger me quick as well, "Jesse stop!" I said firmly, I squirmed a bit more, only tht made it worse for him to push my on the floor and take my jeans off, he had my held down as he took his dick out an decided to get in me, I squirmed and moved and true to push him off, I was crying in fear, but I was too scared Ishiguro incase he did something worse. Once he was finally done he left me, just lay there. I knew I Couldn't tell anyone so I decided to act like it never happened.

Back to reality
"Jesse you son of a fucking rapist bitch, move away from Becas dorm room before I blow my fucking rape whistle, I'm not afraid to get lawyers involved and get you done for rape now get lost!" Chloe blurted out, I don't know she meant to say anything as she soon smacked her hand over her mouth, "I'm so sorry beca I'm so sorry" she whispered shaking her head in her hands. I kissed her cheek to reassure her, honestly I wasn't am I was just scared.. "It's okay" I said.
4hours later
I guess Jesse did move away after what Chloe said thankfully, I didn't know what to do about it though, soon after he did rape me I started to selfharm.. I can't live with the fact it feels like Jesse took Hal my life away from me... And I'll never get it back, I wounded why I started to think about my selfharm? I've just woke up from a nap session with Chloe, fuck Chloe! I looked next to me to find Chloe creating circle patterens over my cuts on my thigh... I completely forgot about them... "Please can we not speak about it" I said when tears escaped my eyes, she nodded and lay above me, she kissed my nose then my lips gently, "I love you beca..." She said softly with a year drop off her eye, I know we had sex and all but she just means as friends surely... I'm sure she just means as friends, we are like friends with benefits, that's why we are, I mean I don't like Chloe like that... That beautiful red head is wy too good for me, I know she is! "So I know I was asleep before you but I woke up to a text from you... How come you text me that?" Chloe asked softly, when the hell did I text Chloe I don't remember! "Chloe I'm really sorry I can't remember what I wrote can I please read it?" I asked with hesitation, Chloe nodded me and reached for her phone, I opened up my text and began to read it,
Hey beautiful red head, listen this is really important to me so here it goes...

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Thanks for reading guys! Sorry it takes me so long to update but it goes better for me when I don't update all the time, I try not to leave it long though for you awesome people actually reading this! But I'm getting more ideas for what to write about so I hope this can only get better! Same goes for the other story I'm writing! ❤️❤️❤️