knowing you (process of editing)

Chapter Twenty- nine

Baylons P.O.V.

It was finally the day of the battles. My wolf was definitely on edge and very pumped up, and ready to go. Nehemiah had been with my mate and was about to learn a lesson today, you dont mess with an Alphas mate. I hopped out of bed, showered, and brushed my teeth. I stood for a moment and looked at myself in The mirror. Was I ready for this? I had to win this fight, not only because he was with my mate, but because I now was the Alpha and everybody would be looking at me to be the denominator of theses battles. Of course I wasn't running the battles, that was Randys job as the Beta, but I intended on battling Nehemiah personally and overseeing the proceedings as Alpha. The purpose wasn't to eliminate anyone from the pack or be demeaning towards our pack members. It was to make sure that everyone was up to par for their positions, kind if an initiation into the higher ranks of our pack.
That was why I had alot to prove as well. They needed to know that I could run this pack correctly, especially since most, or all of the younger members were going to college and having a sabbatical from the pack. "You will win..." I told myself in the mirror. I was ready to go. My mindset went to Kaylee....My Kay. I already made up my mind that I would go to see her, apologize, and try to explain myself to her.....One day. I hoped that she would be so proud of me. I missed her so much and I just didnt know how I would be able to stand being away from her while she was at school. My father was always an open and receptive Alpha to the pack. I have always been the complete opposite. Would I turn into a hermit? I thought to myself. I kept looking in the mirror. I would do everything to change how people saw me, the new Alpha. I couldn't let the pain of missing her effect my rule. No matter what I would make my father proud of me.
I went downstairs to grab myself a quick snack before going to the battles, but I found my mom in the kitchen cleaning up after breakfast. She went into the microwave and handed me a plate. She knew just exactly what I needed. Bacon, sausage, Eggs, grits, hash browns, and toast. It totally hit the spot. "Thanks so much mom, I should be good for a couple of hours......until second breakfast " I joked. She smiled "Well honey, its a small plate but everyone else beat you to the punch earlier. You seem in very good spirits today.....its nice to see. Good luck with the battles today. Your fathers spirit will be there with you and use respect and also wisdom today my son." She kissed my cheek and left the kitchen, but turned to come back. "I totally forgot. Joey has been waiting for you patiently since about eight O' clock this morning." I must've looked puzzled I guessed because she came back into the kitchen and sat down next to me at the table. She grabbed my hand. "He is your baby brother and could possibly be the next Alpha, it's your responsibility now to teach him the ways of the pack and each persons responsibility and also what an Alpha does." She said quietly. "Wow, as if I wasnt already feeling pressure." She smiled with a look of sympathy. "You thought that your father was just dragging you to things to make you miserable? He was teaching you, showing you. And when you were joeys age you loved to go with him. You were his tiny shadow and he was so proud to show you off. He would tell everyone that you were FUTURE alpha Baylon, and you would just beam with happiness. " a tear ran down her cheek. It took everything in me not to cry as well. " I wished we would have been close like that again before he......" I couldn't finish my sentence. "He knew how you felt about him. He would tell me all the Time how he knew that one day you'd make an excellent Alpha. How you were a really strong young man.
He would watch you train all the time when you were a little boy. He wanted to intervene, but he knew that he couldn't and he had to allow you to learn. It hurt him so much to see you hurt. He would always talk to your teachers in every grade and ask what type of student you were. He would go into your room when you were at school and look at all of the books that you were reading. He loved how intelligent that you were sweetheart. His pride in you was bountiful." I couldn't stop myself from tearing up. "Sounds like a freaking stalker." I joked. My mom laughed. "He was just a man who loved his son and wanted to know him." She smiled "But I lost out on really getting to know him." I said sadly... We just sat for a moment. Finally I wiped away my tears and spoke again, " Well, let joey know that I'm ready. He is gonna be my buddy for the day." She stood, kissed my forehead, and went to get my little brother. He looked so prepared to go. Usually his shoulder length jet black hair was all over the place, This day he had on some little blue jeans, a white Tee, gym shoes, and his mangled hair was neatly in a ponytail. He was actually my mini me. "Okay mom see ya later. I will take care of little joe here." He smiled up at me. I scooped him up and we were out the door.
Finally we made it to the battle grounds. The clouds were rolling in to an overcast sky and I wondered would it rain While I was beating the hell out of Nehemiah. I sat joey down on the seat that was closet to the ring. "Joe, you sit tight right here and watch, and if you need something I will be right here okay?" He nodded and I gave him a peck on the forehead. I was his only male father figure now. I had no idea how I was gonna do it all. I could've never predicted the life that I had at my age. I dreamt of being at a university and exploring life's challenges. I could feel anger building up inside of me. My life was over, and all that I had was my mate and she was gone. Clearly she'd moved on even before she'd left, with this fucking moron. But I didnt blame her....I blamed him. For all of it. I was left alone to try to figure it all out.
I went up to the ring where every one was. " Hey, what's happened so far?" They all looked at me like I was a stranger. Randy spoke. "Well..Anna and soraya already went against each other. Soraya came around to the fact that she wants to be part of security. She is really good too. They both are. I went up against the both of them and they were Tough opponents. I know what you said about Jeffery so I will go against him." He smiled. " Then there's you and Nehemiah...you guys are last." He winked. Why did he put that guy in my head again. Well I guessed I would have to get over it eventually, he was a pack member and if he was to be pack security and counsel I would have to trust him. But not today, today I was gonna try to really hurt him for being with my mate.
As the day went on I watched alot of battles and realized that I did have a fantastic group of guys and some good girls too on my team. Joey ate from the okawa cafeteria, took a nap, and even read a book from the learning annex. But mostly he watched the fights and I would explain the moves, and also everyone's title in the pack and what that meant. He really was enjoying his Time with me and I was happy for him. I felt like Jeff held his own with Randy, he was way stronger than he let on. He held his own so I appointed him as counsel and pack protection. Finally it was Time for Nehemiah and I to go. I was so ready. "Joey, you sit here and be cool okay? Its Time for big brother to go and battle. Love you little man. He nodded. He really needed to see me win. My pride would be crushed if I lost to the dude that banged my mate. And in from of my little brother? I am Alpha. I wanted to destroy this guy.
I entered the ring and on the other side Nehemiah hopped over the ropes with ease. He had a very confident look on his face. He didnt realize that I was about to really hurt him. This dude was about to get all of my pinned up frustration. He slept with my mate and now shes gone. I could feel my blood pressure rise, and my anger level as well. I started to warm up by bouncing a little and sparring with myself, using punching motions.
I took my shirt off and his expression changed, he looked kinda nervous. Good. The bell rang and I went full attack mode. I grabbed him by his arm and wrapped it around his back. Then I slammed him to the ground and started to choke him. Hard. When I saw him start to turn purple I let him go. It took him a minute but he finally got up, then he tried twice to punch me but missed. I came back with a punch square in the nose and he raised his hands in surrender and held his nose to stop the bleeding. "Man, we are supposed to be sparring, are your trying to kill me or something??" " You hooked up with my mate." I said angrily. Then I punched him again. He hit the floor and just sat there in a daze. Two other guys grabbed him and checked to see if he was alright. Finally he spit out blood from his mouth. Good. I busted his mouth. "Baylon, I did not have sex with Kaylee." He touched his mouth. "I think you knocked my tooth lose, man what the hell??" I just stood there for a minute in shock. "So....what...you guys didnt?" But you were in her house, in her room." He finally stood a bit wobbly " We talked. Dude, of course I did try, but she wasn't having it. She was as tight as a clam. She wasnt giving it up at all." I went to hit him again and he flinched, but I didn't hit him. I stoped myself. I realized that it was enough and turned and walked out of the ring. I turned to Randy before I left.
"Randy, he's security and counsel now." " You think thats a good idea Alpha?" Randy asked. I looked at him confused. "Of course." I nodded. "We will do our initiation tomorrow night." I turned to look at Nehemiah one last time. "If you ever touch anything else that belongs to me, I...will...kill..you." He kneeled down and nursed his wounds with muffled voice he said, "Yes Alpha" Then he rolled his eyes at me. I didnt care,  I beat him. I was Alpha of the pack. I demanded respect. I grabbed joe up, smiled and at him. We jumped in the car and drove off.
When I got to the pack house I felt a huge sense of relief but also I needed to call Kaylee. I needed to say that I was sorry, that I was coming to see her. I gave joey to my mom. She didnt say anything to me, I guessed that she could sense my happiness. I smiled and she smiled back. Immediately I went up to my room to call her. I Waited impatiently while the phone rang and then I heard her. A voice of an angel. "Hello?" I felt my soul ease, and a feeling on contentment that I hadn't felt since she left. "Hello kay, it's me Baylon." I told her. "I know who it is." She said with a sound of disappointment. That was kind of off putting. She wasnt happy to hear from me? "Its Bay..Lon. your mate?" Dead air is all that I heard. So I went on "well I just wanted to say...." But before I could finish she interrupted with "Baylon. I know who you are, and look I have moved on like you wanted me to. It would be great if you let me live my life and not call me and remind me of all of that crap from that place anymore. I am back with MY pack now and I have moved on and I advise that you do the same Baylon." I was speechless. She just crushed all of my hopes of us getting back together. I wanted to tell her that I changed my mind. That I loved her. But at that moment I couldn't even think of how to respond to what she'd just said to me. "Ummm, okay." Is all that I came up with. "Okay well goodbye Baylon." "Goodbye?" And then there was dead air. She hung up on me?

She was done? She moved on? I was astonished. I didnt know how to feel about all that she just said. I began to panic. She didn't want her own mate anymore? I Knew that I couldn't let her go that easily. She was my mate, noone could replace my mate. I wasn't gonna be okay with another person. I had to call her back. "Baylon why are you calling me now?" She said sounding annoyed. " Baby Please don't be that way." I whispered. She inhaled and exhaled deeply. "Look.." she paused and then finally she said it, "Baylon I reject you as my mate. I dont want you anymore, I dont want you calling me anymore. Leave me alone, let me live my life. And im not your baby." She said with a quivering voice. I was speechless and broken. "Thank you." And then she hung up. I just held the phone to my ear in Shock for a minute. I touched my face and it was moist. Was I crying? Did I have tears? I did, My pain was deep. Then it went from pain straight to anger. "Bitch" my wolf said it again. Bitch.I wiped my face and stood to look at myself in the mirror. "You are the Alpha. You dont need anybody." I said sternly. I was moving on. She moved on, I would move on Too. I was no longer Baylon, I was alpha Baylon nothing more, nothing less. I didn't have a mate. I thought that I knew her.... I trusted her. Now the only person that I trust is me...