[C] I'm Sorry 미안해 (Sequel to My Brother) | YooLee Brothers

Chapter 2-The Bad News

[Song of the chapter: Letter-Kim Jong Kook]

Jae Suk's POV

I sat on the bench quietly waiting for my turn, hoping that no one will recognise me. After 10 minutes, the nurse signalled me to go in instead of calling my name, to avoid the others to know my identity. I quickly went in to the room and sat down on the chair.

"Annyeonghaseyo, Yoo Jae Suk ssi." Dr. Park said.

"Ah ye."

"Why did you come today?"

"Well...I think there's something wrong with my health recently. I sometimes felt dizzy during filming and...I also had nosebleed. Oh, my body also felt pain sometimes, it's not the normal joint pain, it's worse than that. I guess it's because I'm too busy with my schedule, right?" I explained to him.

"I think you need to have to go through some check up to make sure what is the problem."

"Ne."

[Skip, a few days later.]

"Why is this happening to me? How could I tell them about this? It's cruel to them." I thought. I scratched my head, feeling upset and frustrated.

[Flashback, at the hospital.]

"So...uisah-nim(doctor), how was the results?" I asked worriedly. Dr. Park's face shows that something is not right. I felt nervous, did something bad happened to me?

"Jae Suk ssi, I need to be honest with you. There's something wrong with you health. The results shows that you are having...leukemia."

"What...? Leukemia?" I suddenly felt like the world has become dark, I'm having leukaemia? What?! How could this happen? I still have a long way to go...

"Ne."

"Are you sure? Is there any mistake?"

The doctor shook his head lightly. I laid my back on the chair, feeling disappointed. Why? Why is this happening to me?

"What stage is it now?"

The doctor looked at me and said with a heavy heart, "I'm sorry to tell you that its already the last stage."

I almost blacked out when I heard that, my mind went blank and I don't know what to do. I decided to keep it as secret from everyone. So I said, "Uisah-nim, please don't tell anyone about this. Especially to my dongsaeang, Kwang Soo. I'm afraid that he can't accept the truth."

"But...at this moment, all you need is moral support from your friends and family."

"I know, but...I don't want them to be worry about me. We're all famous people, if the news spread out, their mood and the show might be affected..."

"But..."

"Uisah-nim, I'm begging you about this, please don't tell them about it. I'll try to tell them myself."

"Well, ok then."

"Kamsahabnida, uisah-nim."

[Flashback end.]

I sat on the bench in a garden, I closed my eyes to rest for a while. But when I close my eyes, all I see is my dongsaeng, Kwang Soo...

I can't imagine how will he react if he knows that I'm dying. We lived together for about 20 years, our relationship are deeper than blood related brothers, he's always stuck with me, even the members said like we are like a real couple. I'm so scared that...he might cry. I always feel guilty when Kwang Soo cried. He's a sensitive boy. How could I leave him alone...?

[Skip, at home.]

I went back home about 11 p.m. Kwang Soo said, "Jae Suk hyung, you're back!"

I smiled at him and Kwang Soo asked, "Where have you been for the whole day?"

Instead of answering his question, I said, "Kwang Soo yah."

"Ne?"

"I have something to ask you."

"I'm listening, hyung."

"Ok. Kwang Soo yah, what will you do...if I left you one day?"

"Hyung, why are you asking this kind of question? Are you moving out?"

"Just answer my question!"

"Well...I don't think I will let you go."

"Yah, seriously, you're not a baby anymore. Besides that, I'm might not be there for you all the time. And who knows? I might die tomorrow."

"No! I won't let you leave me, hyung!"

"I'm just taking it as an example, why are you taking it so seriously?"

"Well...I guess I'm too afraid of losing you."

I almost cried when I heard what Kwang Soo said. I felt sorry for him, I'm leaving him soon...but I just don't know when...

"Ok...it's getting late, Kwang Soo. Go and sleep now."

"Ne hyung!" Kwang Soo went back to his bedroom after he finish talking. I sighed.

"Mianhae, Kwang Soo yah. I can't be there for you forever."

*Those Italics words means that their thinking in their hearts. See you in the next chapter!