Doctor Who: The Evangelion Error (Book Two)

Bonus Material: The Ayanami Report (Part 2 of 2)

One last face. He looks like the Doctor. But he is not.

I hear a voice. A voice that is not mine. It says: "In time, you must face it, child."

I do not understand. What must I face?

I see... a gold pocket watch. Strange symbols carved on its surface. It whispers to me. It oscillates back and forth like a pendulum. It holds many secrets.

I reach out and touch it.

Sky. Red sky. The color red. The color I hate.

The liquid flows. It drips and pours. Blood. The smell of blood. Red soil. A woman who never bleeds -- yet I am bleeding.

Death. I am in a forest. The trees are all dead. They are covered in blood. The blood is all around me. It covers me.

I hear... something loud. Screams. Cries. From countless throats. Millions. Billions. The sound. It is... it is disagreeable.

I cannot move. Very strange. I feel as if my body is melting. My shape is fading away. And it...

It...

It hurts.

I am dying and it hurts. Everything hurts.

Pain... this is pain.

I am death. I am pain. I am the death that took the trees. I am the pain that makes the other voices cry out. I am hurting them.

The world is burning, and I am the flame.

I

I do not want this. I do not want this pain.

Take it away. Please. Someone take it away. I do not want it. I do not want it. I do not want it. I do not

Note: the words "I do not want it" are from this point repeated over and over again until the end of the next page. This appears to be the last of the paper Pilot Ayanami was provided with.