The Secret

Chapter 11: Trinity's POV

I couldn't sleep. I was wide awake. I lay in Drake's bed starring at the ceiling. I couldn't sleep for many reasons. I wasn't tired. His Grandma is here, here to meet me! His mom hates me! That's right his mom hates me! I doesn't take an idiot to realize that she hates me. Besides clarifying by reading deep into her dirty mind, it's written all over her face. The last thing I need right now is for her to hate me. I want her to like me but I also don't want to come across as a kiss ass. 

With this in my head, I sat up in the bed and quietly removed the covers. My feet touched the cold hardwood floor sending chills throughout my body. I stood and glanced back at Drake who was peacefully sleeping. He's so cute!  I walked to the door and put my hand on the door knob quietly to make sure that I didn't wake Drake up. 

I walked down the spiral staircase and outside. The cool night wind enveloped me sending goosebumps all over my body. I breathed in the fresh air and looked out at the beach. I looked down at what I was wearing. Nothing but one of Drake's t-shirts.  With of course a bra and underwear underneath.  

I walked out on the beach and memories flooded my mind. This ability of mine was sometimes good and sometimes just overwhelming. It sucked. Memories of Drake and his family came to my mind. Little Drake running in the water laughing. He looked happy. Then the happy memory turned. It was of now. Currently, or what was to come. Drake was on the beach bleeding. I looked down and saw my hands were red. His nose was bleeding. 

"I trust you, I'm not scared!"

"What?" I asked more to myself than him. 

"Please Trin, this isn't you!'

I started panicking. I felt my body shake. Everything around me was swirling.

"Trin please!"

"I'll kill you, you need to stay away!" That's not what I wanted to say, but it was like I was supposed to say that!

"Then kill me, I love you! I love you enough to except death!"

Why the hell would he say that! I'm dangerous! I can't be around him. Who the hell am I kidding! I need to go! I need to leave this. I love him enough to let him go. I don't want to hurt him. For the first time in my life I'm scared! I'm scared of myself and what I'll do and who I'll become! 

And with that I came back to reality. I looked around me, my surroundings were back to normal. I looked down at my hands. There was no blood. I looked for Drake but he wasn't there all bloody. It was all fake, but eventually it would be real, right? 

I plopped down on the sand and drew my knees to my chest. I wrapped my hands around my legs. I buried my head and started crying. I cried for so many reasons. I cried because I couldn't be normal. Because I loved Drake. Because I just wanted to be selfish and be happy. Because I was a witch. A powerful witch. If I was normal I would be fine loving a mortal no problem but I'm not normal, I'm anything but normal. 

Once I was done crying I stood up and whipped my tears. I knew what I had to do, I had to leave. For Drake's own good.

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It was two in the morning and I was getting my clothes on making sure I wouldn't wake Drake up. I have to leave, I couldn't hurt him. I knew he would understand and I knew that when I saw him in school things would hurt and he would be insisting to get back together, but I couldn't. I couldn't hurt him, I couldn't kill him. I love him enough to let him go. That's all I kept saying. Unfortunately, the world doesn't always work in my favor. 

"Hey, where are you going."

I looked up from what I was doing and Drake was sitting up groggily in his bed. Damn it!

"Ugh... going?"

"Why? Oh, is this because of Gran."

I wanted to say yes, but there was something about him that wouldn't let me lie.

"No!"

He stood up suddenly all the grogginess inside of him vanished. Concern was written all over his face.

"Trinity, what's wrong?" He's definitely worried because he used my full name instead of Trin.

"Drake, I can't, I can't do this!"

"What? Get to know my Gran?"

I smiled and replied, "No, not that."

"Then what?"

"I was walking on the beach earlier because I couldn't sleep and then something happened. I saw an image of you bleeding and my hands were red. You told me that you loved me enough to kill you! Drake, I can't kill you! I love you enough not to hurt you! I can't do this. It's too-"

I was interrupted by Drake's warm sweet lips on mine.

"I love you. You said so yourself Trin, you love me enough not to hurt me. So far we are doing good, I'm not dead yet. I love you and I don't scare that easily. I'm not running away from cowardliness, like the other witches and your parents. I love you Trin, enough not to be scared of you!"

At those words I started crying. I want this. I want to be happy. I want Drake, but the risk is too high.

"Drake I can'-"

"Shh, there is no such thing as I can't! For once in your life take a risk. Take a chance on us. Please!"

I looked into his eyes full of meaning. I do want this. I do want to take the risk. Like they say in the financial world. The bigger the risk the bigger the reward. Right now I'm taking a huge ass risk. I looked at Drake.

"I can make this work. I love you enough to make this work!"

He looked at me and smiled.

"That's better! I love you too Trin!"

And that's where I was. Loving Drake endlessly. He was the only person that new about my ability and yet he wasn't scared. He wasn't going to run. He was going to stay right here and love me. He was willing to take a risk and for that I loved him for that! I loved him for so many reasons. I wanted this. There was something inside me though that knew I was going to regret this. 

Was I?

Was I going to regret being with Drake?

Right now looking into Drake's eyes. Feeling his body against mine I knew I wouldn't. But people's opinions change overtime. 

Were my feelings now going to change? 

Was the image I saw earlier going to happen?

Right now, I didn't care about the questions racing in my head. All I cared about was Drake. All I wanted to be right now was selfish. 

"I love you Drake, a little to damn much!"

He looked at me and replied, "I love you too Trin! I will always love you and nothing will stop me from loving you! There is no such thing as too much. Trinity, I will love you always and forever and no one will come in our way. Not witches, not your parents. I love you enough to take a risk! I love you more than anyone in this world!"

I started crying more but laughed at the same time. Drake leaned in and kissed me. 

"I love you too Drake, forever and always!"

"Forever and always," he replied with a smile.