4.
Elliot always smells like fresh cut flowers.
When she isn't studying,
in a flurry of translucent buildings,
she cuts stems and organizes
bouquets for lovers
and friends
and the dying.
I can tell a funeral order
from a wedding, she says.
I can't stand calla lilies anymore,
she confesses. They smell like
death to me.
Her apartment is covered in sketches.
The fridge flutters with
papers pinned for later.
Her dog is usually asleep on her feet
as she works in her nest of
paper and ink.
Draw me a city,
I said one day, feeling
especially bold.
I'll do more, she promises.
She catches my hands off her shoulders,
kissing each fingertip.
I will draw you a whole world,
and I can see it, the world
she would create for me,
when she removes each layer with such care
I feel like the ancient structures she loves.
Under Elliot's hands
I become en exoskeleton,
the bare bones of a building
she can tear down with
a single touch.
You're sweet, she whispers.
I like how you respond to me.
She traces bones with her words.
Blushing is second nature now. I say,
I've never done this with anyone,
not a soul.
It is a confession
I know she will treasure.
When do you go home?
I hear the sadness
vibrating in her voice.
Next week. She curls into me.
I wish you could come,
see my trees.
I do, too. Elliot holds me tighter
than anyone has ever held me,
tighter than Ma.
But my parents...
they need me.
Elliot never says
that she hates calla lilies because
when her brother died,
her house drowned in them,
like he drowned in the lake.
Do you miss him?
I place the words in her hands
as they explore my face,
for what must be the hundredth time.
Every day, Ava.
She breathes me in
like I breathe in the forest.
Every damn day.
YOU ARE READING
Bloom, Shifting
PoetryElliot. The name sits on my tongue, melting as if it were sugar. Elliot. I hold that sweet name in my mouth all the way home, mouthing it to the darkness. She moves to the city to learn how to write. She trades redwoods for skyscrapers and...