13.
I couldn't make it up the stairs.
Elliot had to pick me up,
a feat I did not think she could conquer.
It's okay,
she whispers into my hair
let me take care of you.
I can only nod
as my words have deserted me
left me struggling to form anything
they sit at the back of my throat
choking me like
he did.
I can still feel
his hands on my
neck, bruising me.
I try to get in the shower,
but she stops me.
You can't,
her voice is soft,
they'll need to do a test.
My eyes stare blankly at her
empty
not understanding.
A,
a rape kit.
She says finally, holding my hand.
We need to go to the
police, soon.
I start shaking my head
faster and faster
until I can't see Elliot
or her apartment
drawings shifting on her floor
like fallen snow.
No
the first word falls, heavy
no
Ava,
she begs, she begs
please darling we have to
let me take you there.
My legs can't
hold me any more
I lower myself to the ground,
settling in a nest of possibilities
of buildings Elliot has drawn
beauty in a pure form
from a mind that I love.
I look at her,
her soft hands and
the freckles I like to kiss in the morning
brown eyes like almonds.
The words sneak up my throat,
struggling to gain momentum,
volume, get past the barriers.
I love you
I say it helplessly
There are tears in Elliot's eyes
And I want to wipe them away but
my arms are too heavy.
I love you too,
her mouth barley moves,
but I see the pain it causes
Let me help,
let me take you to the police.
Ava.
Please.
With effort,
I lift my arm to touch
those golden freckles.
Okay,
I nod, let my hand fall.
Okay.
Elliot begins to cry
she pulls me close,
long strands of her wheat hair
getting in my mouth,
her hands grip the blanket around my shoulders
and she cries. She cries
and cries and
begs me to be okay.
It will be okay
she whispers, stroking my hair
I promise.
I want to believe her,
and I nod
even though I don't
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Bloom, Shifting
PoetryElliot. The name sits on my tongue, melting as if it were sugar. Elliot. I hold that sweet name in my mouth all the way home, mouthing it to the darkness. She moves to the city to learn how to write. She trades redwoods for skyscrapers and...