14.
I don't remember the police station
or the rape kit
only that Elliot never let go of my hand
not once
and the police officer was a woman
with a voice that sounded like water
there were interviews
and I had to give my statement
over and over, until I had it memorized
but the words got stuck in my throat each time
Elliot took me back to her bed
where she tucked me in
held me close
stroked my hair
she fell asleep before me,
I think she thought I'd already
drifted off, but I couldn't
not when I had the ghost of hands,
bruises, settled on skin that
once felt pure
I cried oceans that night
filled with crustaceans and
iridescent jellyfish
lace trailing
behind them in still water
In the early light
Elliot nuzzled my neck
held me close
from behind
breathed sweet air, cupped by my collarbones
before she woke
I slipped out from under her
stepping over gasping fish
desperate anemones,
changed the pillow case,
so she wouldn't know I'd soaked mine
with an ocean
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Bloom, Shifting
PoetryElliot. The name sits on my tongue, melting as if it were sugar. Elliot. I hold that sweet name in my mouth all the way home, mouthing it to the darkness. She moves to the city to learn how to write. She trades redwoods for skyscrapers and...