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You think you know what I'm going through?
You think you can say that I don't eat enough?
You think you can tell how I feel,
What I think,
Who I love.You think you know how much time is too long
To spend by myself
And the only way I can be alone
Is when I've earned it.You
Think
You
KnowAll these things, that I have to eat more, when all I want is to be beautiful
Like her
The girl you watch
The one
The only one you have eyes for
She is more beautiful than I could ever be
Smarter,
Kinder,
Happier.And then my problems make me
angry
sad
just unpleasant to be aroundSo I throw up this facade of
joy
contentment
being 'okay'And then you!
in your perfection,
able to see right through me
Except the parts that I want people to seeYou see the
pain
truth
darkness
and you, you want to help!
you want to make me all right againbut can't you see
it only makes me love you more
and when you don't love me in that way back
I am torn apart inside
And you see the rip but not the reason
and the purity of your character
blinds you
to the fact that your kind actions
are
slowly
killing
me
softlysoftly, softly, hidden to all
even
you
especially
youyou're too good to be true the only one who knows me you see me more than I do and the only thing I know is that I don't deserve you and I never will unless
unless I can make you notice me
as a flower not a rainy pebble
as pretty
not patheticSo I will act strong
and smile often
and the bruises are only on my heart in my head
and even you can't heal themSo I will remain a fountain
spouting happiness
never running out of water
until one day
when the
pipes
freeze
and the water cannot run
and the statue within is exposed
and it all shatters into a million billion shards
of
my
despairoh and when I'm gone, you'll do that thing you do
where you think you know it all
amd you always do
except
except
except
this time, the time that matters most
you only think you have a solution
but you won't
and you'll freeze too
and then everything collapses
and all that is left
are
icy
ashesand
yet
in
this
fairytale
there
is
no
phoenix
to
rise
and
fly
againin
this
fairytale,
there's
no
turning
back
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The Truth From Within
Poetry(Mainly freestyle) Poems about my feelings/life, the side of me that no one knows about in reality.