My friends are demons (Ipliers and AntiSepticEye x Reader) *Done* (#Wattys2016)

Chapter 19: Time doesnt heal ALL wounds

(A/N: just a warning, there's gonna be some really depressing subjects in this chapter, mainly about self harm. If you are uncomfortable with this subject, please skip over this chapter)
*Anti POV*
I trudged upstairs to go back by Y/N...though I doubt she wanted to see me now. She was already asleep, her face stained with tears. I sighed and rested my head on the doorframe of her room. I manage to fuck up everything! I went back downstairs and took out my knife. I pulled back my sweatshirt sleeves, examining the old scars I had made. I had another girl I had to protect once...and she was terrible to me. I let her get hurt cos I hated her so much. That's actually where I met Dark. He was assigned to her instead of me. I was so broken I figured I deserved to be hurt. I sighed and went to the bathroom sink. I ran the water to wash the blood away, and I started to cut my arm. It really hurt, heck it brought me to tears. I kept going though.
Nobody wants you Anti, I told myself, You manage to screw up everything
I finally stopped and my vision started to blur. I felt dizzy and light-headed. Was this dying? Sure felt like it. I dropped my knife to the floor and fell to my knees weakly
"See ya in hell guys" I whispered closing my eyes
*Dark POV*
I got up as I heard something clatter downstairs. I prayed that it wasn't Wilford again
"Don't let it be him, don't let it be him" I whispered. I heard running water from the bathroom
"Anti? You ok?" I called quietly
No response
"Anti?" I called again
Nothing. My heart stopped. Oh no...he didn't...
I ran to the bathroom and found the door locked
"Anti!? Open the door right now!" I said panicking. When I first met Anti I had to stop him from doing this to himself. I focused my dark energy on the doorknob and blasted it off. I pushed the door open to find Anti lying on the ground. Blood stained his sweatshirt and his knife which laid next to him. I bent down next to him and shook his by his shoulders
"Anti!? Buddy wake up! Wake up!" I cried desperately. Anti's eyes fluttered open slightly
"Dark..." He mumbled
"Oh thank God" I breathed and sat him up in my arms "We're gonna clean you up and then get you in bed"
"...no" Anti murmured
"What?" I breathed
"Leave me be..." he whispered
"Anti what are you talking about? I'm taking care of you" I insisted
Anti took a weak swing at my face, not enough to seriously hurt me, but it did hurt a little.
"I don't want saving!" He groaned
"Tough, you're being saved" I said getting medical supplies out. Anti weakly flailed on the tile floor in an attempt to get away. I shushed him as I started running water in the bathtub so he could sit in the water and let the blood wash off. Despite his kicking and weak yelling, I put him in the warm water. He sighed and relaxed a little. After lifting off his sweatshirt, I took a washcloth and gently cleaned off his wounds
"Anti why did you do this to yourself?" I asked him
"Nobody would care if I were gone Dark" Anti mumbled as I started to wrap up his arm
"I'd care! I'd care a lot Anti!" I said shocked
He murmured something sleepily. He rubbed his eyes and blinked "Let me sleep...please Dark"
"I don't want you dying on me" I told him gently
"But I wanna die!" He growled and tried to push himself out of the bathtub
"No Anti your not-OW!" I started before Anti punched me in he face. He regained his strength and was starting to fight back. I had to force him down back down
"Anti don't make me knock you out!" I said through blood running into my mouth
"I'd like to see you try!" Anti yelled. I got him in a sleeper hold despite his struggles. A few moments later he was slapping at my arms trying to get my grip looser "Dark...stop!"
"Anti you asked for this" I said
He passed out moments later. I laid him back in he tub as I stitched up his wounds
"Let's make sure these wounds are healed for good" I said
*
I picked up Anti from the bathtub and carried him to Y/N's bed
"Dark!? Is that Anti!? What happened!? I woke up and he was gone and I-" Y/N started to ramble
"Shh...don't wake the others" I said quietly "He was doing a lot of...cutting with his knife. He's probably in unimaginable emotional and physical pain. I've taken all his knives away so he won't hurt himself anymore"
Y/N covered her mouth in horror "I-I never..."
She watched as I laid Anti on her bed. She murmured 'I'm sorry Anti' over and over
"Y/N go to sleep" I told her "Anti's gonna be fine"
She shook her head "I can't go to bed...Not with he knowledge he did this because of me"
I sighed and put my hand on her shoulder "He wouldn't want you to worry about him. Go to sleep"
She still shook her head. I didn't have any choice but to make her go to sleep. Thanks to the fandom, someone along the way made my voice able to put anyone to sleep...thank you whoever you are. I hummed softly and watched Y/N's shoulders start to relax. She started nodded her head as she fought to stay awake. Finally her head met the mattress and she fell asleep. I lifted her into the bed like Anti was and watched as Anti moved his arm around her in his sleep. They wouldn't stay mad at each other for long...there was no way they could. I smiled at the two of them and went back to sleep, knowing I'd have to deal with Anti and Y/N in the morning
*Far away, Wilford POV*
I whistled to myself as I looked through the stuff in my basement
"Y/N I'm sure you're gonna like it here" I chuckled "I'll take VERY good care of you. Anti's ignorance will be his downfall"
I smirked as I got out the bullets for my gun and loaded it
Oh Y/N...you'll be crying for Anti as soon as I start with you I thought
(A/N: what's Wilford up to? Will you and Anti be together again? Will any of the other characters doing anything ffs? I hope so)