My last chapter was an example of what goes on in today's world so sad so hurtful so painful so if you could take a moment and get ready for this chapters because this is one of the most saddest chapter I have ever tried to write or attempt to make 🙏🏽 p.s this is fiction so don't get mad or anything it's simply a piece of art and work just writing
Beyoncé point of view
As I look at the window seal into the nothing less blue sky I realize ....
The society of today has set us all up for failure. I sit in my cold room with no lights nor any sheets on my bed. I've always wondered what I would become would I be successful like my mother and father told me I would be or would I be some failure out on the streets.
I've Come to realize that not everyone chose to be out in streets not everyone chose to look how they look or act the way they act. It's simply normal to them to do what they do.
I wake up every morning a think will I ever be able to Change what happened no I won't but all I could simply do was pray. I wish I could have done something because it eats my soul away every night .
I look at the little girl before me and wonder how am I going to care for someone who I haven't known that much how am I going to tell her everything is going to be okay when I hardly know it is .
Her Beautiful big hair her hazel brown eyes and her tall fragile legs. From the moment she dances around stage to the moment she goes to sleep I wonder how I'm going to approach her and tell her that there's a problem .
The way she smiles and plays around is beyond the most beautiful thing to watch. She's clueless she lives in a fairytale she thinks everything is always going to be okay .
I have to be the one to tell her no there are some really cruel things that happens in the world but will I let them come in contact with her . Over my dead body will I .
She comes walking up to me noticing my tear stained eyes wondering why she's been here for almost 2 hours without seeing her father .
" Beyoncé where's my dad " she asked with tears falling from her cheek
I could barley speak I grabbed her and pulled her into my chest looking at the dark setting.
" your dads at the hospital " I said
" why ... Why is he there " she cried
" your father has been shot " I said holding her hand making sure to support her through all the craziness about to go on.
" what how .. Why are we still sitting here " she cried
" your grandmother thought it would be best if we seen him in the morning she's didn't want you to see him so soon it would be bad" I said
" I don't give a flying hell of how she think or what she feels I should do I want my dad and I need to see him now do you know what it's like to have no mother in a society like this it's hard as hell " she cried
" please calm down " I cried
" no don't tell me to calm down its my dad , my dad the only fucking person I have left no one cares for me as much as he did no one I can't .... I just can't lose him " she cried
" I know if would get some rest and relax everything will be fine " I cried
" NO !! I can't relax " she yelled running off
I wasn't going to chase her until I heard knifes being taken out of my kitchen . I ran to the kitchen to see her holding a knife to her stomach .
" angel put the knife down " I said
" no I have no mom and who knows if I have a dad " she cried
" please put the knife down your father would not want you to do that and I don't want that I love you to much your father loves you to much " I cried walking closer to her
" Beyoncé you haven't even known me for that long how could possibly love me and how could you just say that out of the blue " she yelled
" I know what if feels like to lose someone I've someone who meant the world to me he was like my best friend but God makes choices that we all can't change when I look at you I feel that your my child but you really not " I said
" my mom left me here I know she didn't have a choice but I wish she sometimes did , I really wish she had a choice but she didn't " she cried
" I know , I know but would your mother want you to hurt yourself " I asked slowly walking towards her
" no " she whispered
" put the knife down " I whispered
The knife fell from her hands as she fell to her knees bawling out. I've never been a mother Before but I've worked with so many children but I feel like she was going to be the one I'm most connected with
" angel I'm going to help you get through this " I said
" I just wish I had a mommy to support me through things like when I get my period how am I going to tell him " she cried
" I know baby but you can always know you have me to come to " I said
" you and my dad have been separated for a while and " GCO
" I love you dad and I'm pretty sure your dad loves me we just have to get used to having people In our life again " I said
" I jus hope My dad makes the right choice and start a family with you and just make us all happy. Do you want kids?"
" yeah I want at least one " I smiled
" just promise me it will be by my dad " she smiled
" I can't predict the future babe I wish I could but I can't so I can't promise you but I can say I'll try to make that wish a reality for you real soon " I smiled
" thanks Beyoncé " she smiled
" no problem now let's get you freshened up and full so we can go to school and work and then to see your father " I smiled
" okay love you " she said
" I Love you too " I said
A/n
Sorry I don't proof read 😁 exams are kicking my butt ✌🏽️😭😴 I'll update again soon 👍🏽
