Beyonce point of view
Waking up with a hangover is not a good feeling what so ever. I feel terrible and not to mention I'm still embarrassed of what I did with jay last night. That totally was out of my character and I never wanted him to see me like that. I know some time today I will have to encounter him but I'm going to try my best to avoid him.
I got off the twin bed in the RV feeling really dizzy
I slowly walked to the bathroom so that I could freshen up and at least look like I'm human. I still had on the clothes I had wore last night and my hair was a mess.
" Well good morning " Nicki chuckled as she sat on the sofa near the bathroom
" Good morning " I mumbled stepping into the bathroom locking the door
After freshening up for 10 minutes and washing my hair I stepped out the shower and put on my yellow sundress and some sandals. I was not feeling it today I didn't even apply any makeup I just let my face look how it looked.
I made my way into the living area and sat on the sofa next to nicki.
" so how did last night go " she asked
I put my palm in my head sighing because I didn't want to cry.
" what's wrong bestie " nicki asked sitting up a bit more concerned
" last night I got drunk and I was totally out of my character with Shawn I started talking dirty and tugging his pants asking for sex and of course he turned me down because he's with Lisa but I just felt like a hoe and I never wanted him to see me like that" I said
" Beyonce you were his freak and he was yours I'm sure the things jay did for you were only for you and I'm sure the things you did for him were only for him you were drunk and yes he may have never seen you like that but he's not a stranger" she said
" I know but I just felt so desperate and stupid " I said
" this all will blow over but until then let's go get some breakfast " she said walking out
I grabbed my cellphone before leaving out behind her. We walked to the breakfast tent and there I instantly saw jay sitting with chance and the boys. I couldn't do it I couldn't look at him right now.
" Nicki I can't " I said walking back out and as fast as I could
" wait wait wait " I heard but I didn't look back until the person finally caught me
" Beyonce wait " Shawn said grabbing my arm
I turned around and looked at him with my eyes watering.
" look about last night " gco
" I'm sorry that wasn't me and I never wanted you to see me that way I was drunk I understand you have Lisa and I should have never crossed my grounds" I said walking away
" Beyonce I - I love you and last night made me realize your the only women who I desire and need "he said
I couldn't turn around because I was in the mist of crying
He held me from the back
" I need you baby I can't keep acting like I don't I need you I need to hold you everyday your the love of my life " he said
I turned around slowly as my tears fell
" baby please don't cry " he smiled
" I can't keep doing this jay I cry to much for you " I cried
" baby when I seen you last night I just thought of all the laughs we had and all the good times we had your meant to be my wife your meant to have my kids" he said hugging me tighter
" please don't " I cried
" I'm serious Beyonce " he said grabbing my head facing it in his direction
He pecked my lips as I cried
" I got you baby I got you baby " he said rocking me
" please don't let me go " I cried
" I won't baby but we can't have you crying out here like this " He chuckled walking me back into the private bathroom near by
He looked at me and as I paced back and forth
" baby let's talk " he said
" you have Lisa Shawn what is there to talk about" I said
" I broke it off last night she was nice and all but I didn't connect with her like I do with you I need you" he said
" what" I said immediately stopping my pacing to look at him
" Beyonce I feel something totally different with you and I couldn't give her half of me it wasn't fair to her she deserves better and she understood that" he said
" what about " gco
"There are no what ifs Beyonce all I need to know is will you be my wife " he said kneeling down
" Shawn what " I choked up crying
" come on baby I can't live without you and will never live without you" he said
" yes" I squealed as he wrapped his arms around me picking me up
" I was going to wait to make it romantic but we're human and both everything goes as planned " he said
" the first time we had sex was in a bathroom were full of it that night " I chucked
" I'm just glad to have you back baby" he said pecking me lips
" me too " I smiled
