Betrayal

Chapter Eighteen

•Shay•

I stood in the kitchen as I listened to Paula talk about Shawn. I couldnt help but think about the night Shawn and I had last night. I knew that was the main reason why he went home and jumped out of his clothes but I wasnt going to tell Paula that. I knew better than to pull that number. Who knew what the hell would happen if she found out. Shawn and I didnt plan for this to happen but it did. I know that I am seeing De'Wayne but we havent had any action yet and when Shawn came.. he gave me all Ive been wanting and needing. Who knew how long this would go on cause I damn sure didnt but I was going to enjoy the ride while I was on it and while it was being offered.

I walked out the kitchen and sat in the living room. I could still smell Shawn's sent and feel his hands all over me. It wasnt there and happening physically but it felt like it.

I rubbed the spot on the sofa where Shawn and I were.

I heard my phone ring on the table.

"Hello?"

"Shay."

"Yes Shawn."

"We need to talk about what happened last night."

"When?"

"Today."

"Where should I meet you then?"

"No. We can meet at your place."

"Alright."

"When I get through with this meeting, Im coming."

"Alright Shawn." I said before he hung up.

I knew by the way Shawn spoke, he was feeling guilty about what he did. I felt kind of bad too but its not like I walked up to him and seduced him. I didnt know Shawn was the man under the mask that I met at the club. Shawn didnt even have any business in there like he said. He aint single..He should be the one feeling some type of way. Hell I aint married.. I can do whatever the hell I please. Eventhough I never intended to end up with my bestfriend's husband.

An hour or two passed and I heard a knock at the door.

*Knock Knock Knock*

"Who is it?" I called from where I was.

"Its me."

I got up from the sofa and opened the door.

"C'mon in."

He walked in and went into the living room. I closed the door and followed behind him.

"So whats up?" I asked starting off the conversation.

"Ive been thinking.."

"Okay..and.."

"Last night.. when I stopped by.. I didnt plan on.."

"Plan on what..fucking me?"

"Yeah. The plan was to come here and see if what I felt that night at the club was real or if it was just the liquor."

"And what did you conclude?"

"Im married Shay and my wife is your bestfriend. What we did is fucked up on so many levels. Dont get me wrong.. I had a good time last night but I love my wife and.."

"Shawn, we both know this is fucked up. We dont need to be Einstines to figure that out."

"Can I finish Shay?" He said as he looked at me.

"Not if youre going to beat around the bush Shawn. I done heard a lot of shit in my life and been let down in so many relationships the shit aint funny so no matter how much sugar you try to put on this shit.. its still gone be shit. So dont sit in my house telling me things to keep it sweet. Just keep it real with me. Tell me what the fuck is up!"

"You done?" He said without emotion. "Like I was saying.. I love my wife and Lord knows that what we doing is wrong but.. " He started. "I cant get you out of my head."

My eyes grew big as I listened to him talk.

"Even before last night happened. When we were in the club dancing, my hands fell down your back and our lips met.. I felt it. Eventhough it was wrong.. it felt so right."

"What the hell are you telling me Shawn?"

"Im telling you that if we gone do this.. Paula can never find out."

"Are you serious about this Shawn?"

"Ive tried Shay. Ive tried to let this shit go. Ive tried to get you out of my head but this shit is real. My feelings for you I just cant ignore. You want me to keep it real with you Shay?"

"Thats all I ever ask."

".. I love Paula. She's my wife and with all my soul I love her.. and you.. dont get me wrong I like you.."

I held my hand up to Shawn.

"Dont sugarcoat shit.. just give it too me straight."

"I like you Shay but I dont love you. I like what we doing and I like that I can come to you to let all my frustrations out. I know Im suppose to do that with my wife but sometimes I want the shit rough. Like Ike fucking Tina in the studio when she didnt sang the song right.."

"Ike and Tina?" I said with a raised brow.

"Its sounds crazy but thats exactly what I can get from you."

"Okay Shawn I get it."

"I hope that shit didnt sound too harsh and fucked up."

"Naw. I asked you to keep it real and thats what you did. I aint trying to take Paula's spot Shawn. She can stay employed. Im just here for the ride." I said as I got up to straddle his lap.

"Good. Cause Im not leaving my wife."

"I dont want you too.. but I just want you to know that Im seeing someone."

"I dont give a damn. Come to think of it, this could work out just fine. You got whoever the fuck you seeing and I can be with Paula."

"We can just see eachother on the low huh?"

"Whenever I want it.."

"Whenever I want it."

"You cant be greedy now. Paula does have rights to my ass."

"First off when youre in here, which is my house.. its Who the fuck is Paula?"

"Oh its like that?"

"You damn right." I said as I kissed his neck.

"Thats cold Shay."

"This is my time..she can get hers later.." I said as I helped him out of his shirt.

"There is one thing left I do have to say." He said as he stopped me.

"Whats up?"

"I want you to know that this isnt permenant. Its all good right now but its just a fling.. something I need to get out of my system."

"Alright.. I hear you Shawn.." I responded letting what he said go through one ear and out the other.

A lot of guys said that to me before.. but when youre fucking with me, its never that simple. Im addicting.. just look at Ricky..