The problem with Alpha Ian

Chapter 9

I want to dedicate this chapter to my friend Makayla who sadly took away her own life. For all of you guys who don't know she made the banners and the trailer of the previous chapters and I am extremely sad that I lost such a valuable friend. We met through Wattpad so that is why I decided to dedicate this to her. May she rest in peace. Please remember to always tell people how much they mean to you. You never know if it will be the last time you'll hear from them. Xx

Connor's POV

I wake up with a sigh, not daring to look at my side knowing Isabella is sleeping there.

I still don't know how to feel about what we did last night, I mean yeah it felt good but I'm just confused.

I currently have no feelings towards her, I might have had a small crush on her when we first met but after we became friends I realized being her friend was the way to go.

Mostly because she turned down each and every one of my advances.

And now I felt guilty, I took her virginity without having romantic feelings, what if she was expecting a relationship?

I would give it to her, I could learn to love her in the way she deserves.

That settles it, I will treat her how she deserves.

I feel Isabella move slightly next to me and quickly close my eyes, pretending to be asleep.

This is scary.

I hear her yawn and then she gets up from the bed, drawers open and closes and she shuffles a little around probably getting dressed.

"I know you are awake" I hear her say from the other side of the dorm but I stay quiet. It might be a trick.

She chuckles "It's your breathing, you hold your breath until you can't any longer than take a really deep breath and keep repeating the process it's a dead giveaway."

I open one eye first looking and see her laying down on Lily's bed while reading a book, not paying much attention to me.

"I wanted to give you, your space" I lie and she closes her book, giving me her full attention, standing up and covering my junk with the blanket I put my boxer briefs on and then my pants.

"Oh gosh, please don't tell me you feel awkward with me now" she frowns and I shake my head.

"Um no, of course not" taking a deep breath I say the dreaded words that will seal the deal. "You look beautiful"

Which was true, her red hair looked wilder than usual and her forrest green eyes stared at me with a raised eyebrow. She was wearing a a maroon hoodie with our university's mascot on it and black leggings which had become her obsession since she moved here.

She was so beautiful in a natural kind of way.

Eyebrow still raised she freezes "Connor, I-I please don't"

I frown "What?"

"I don't want a relationship, I told you I don't believe in love. I thought you knew this. I thought we were in the same page I-I told you it meant nothing" She looks in the verge of tears when she finished talking.

And then, I burst out laughing.

Bella looks at me as if I've gone mad.

"Oh thank the lord" I holler but she still looks confused as ever. "Bella, I love you as a friend but I don't have feelings towards you. I was going to try because well you are you"

She smiles widely "So you have no feelings towards me?"

I stare at her in disbelief, she is the first girl who is happy that I don't have feelings for her, and I found this insulting.