the things i try my hardest to hide but here it is anyway

As I Watched Him Fade Away

As I watched him approach me, all blue and exhausted
I wanted to tell him that it was all worth it

But the words so harshly were caught in my throat
and then the next morning
I saw him afloat

Oh no, not that way, he was very much alive
but the one thing nobody knew
was that he was dying inside
Someone turned the handle
to the faucet in his eyes
which made him wish
he was anything but alive

Everyone thought he was strong and taken for granted
but little did they know, he was lost and stranded
beautiful was the mask, that he wore so charmingly
but it soon broke, leaving him oh so lonely

As he realised that he had no choice but to run
I started to hallucinate, witnessing him holding a gun
It was pointed to his head, face full of distress
full of sorrow was he, which he couldn't express

I was filled with anguish, met with regret
I wanted to stop him, and make him forget
all the bad things anyone has ever done to make him upset
but all I could do was whimper, my body, posing a threat

every muscle, every nerve, seemed to be stuck
there was nothing I could do, oh, what luck
the lights began to flicker, signalling his
demise
his fingers approaching the trigger, closed were his eyes

The sound I'd never thought I'd hear
echoed through the room
Now was the time; he finally met his impending doom
His hands so delicately fell to the floor
he no longer could fight in the tough, harsh war

It took place in his own mind,
which he could have never run away from
that was why, whenever I saw him
he always looked so glum

He was tattered,
his heart all shattered
scars all over his body from the war
and on that day he decided, "I cant take it anymore."

everyone has their demons, they say,
but is it really fair that they never go away?

my mind empty, it's pitch black
my whole world, is starting to collapse.