I just hope that one
day your memory
will fade away
and along with it will
go the pain you've left
behind as well
and then I will be able to
stop asking myself questions
beginning in "what-if"s
and maybe then I'll be
able to stop thinking of
you when I'm scared
because when I'm scared
you are still the first thing
I think about
and I imagine you
walking next to me
making me feel safe
and making my heart
rate increase
and my stomach swarm
with angry butterflies
out to get to my heart
little did I know the one
I had to worry about
wasn't the dark
but instead the feeling
you gave me when we
were in it
-e.l.
