I sat there letting the hot water
pelt me, though it seemed to do
little to warm meI had the small piece of metal
in hand, already regretting what
I'd donebut it didn't hurt anymore
my heart was numb
sure there were 1 million and 1
thoughts running through my
head all at once and each one more
painful than the lastbut I was numb
but i could breathe
in a sickening way my self
inflicted wounds had helped ease
my attack of thoughtsI stared at my wounds and
rubbed the blood off of them
only to have them bleed some
moreI would have cried if I weren't
so numb by thenI guess I'd made enough
wounds to keep myself numbI stared down at the piece of
metal debating on wether or
not I should create more wounds
to make the feeling lastI shook my head and sighed placing
the metal away and watching as my
wounds bled openly and slowly began
to stain the waterI watched as it slowly swirled
down the drainthen I stood up and rinsed off and
grabbed a towel and the piece of
metal debating on wether or not I
should throw it in the toilet and
flush it away foreverI thought for a good couple minutes
then I walked past the toilet
and into my room, hiding the metal
awayI guess old habits really
do die hard-e.l.