You sat down next to me
and it was like the first time
I tried a cigarette
It felt like all air suddenly
just escaped my lungs, like my
ribcage had betrayed me
And was now constricting
around my lungs and heart
My heart was now beating
so fast, I feared it would pop
But it only got worse as I
witnessed right before my very
eyes you turning to face me,
making direct eye contact with me,
Oh, but then what I feared most
You began speaking to me,
your mouth was moving to form
words, words I knew you were
speaking, words I knew were
directed to me,
But everything around me
Was happening as if I were
under water
Nothing felt real to me, of
course I knew it was, but I
guess I was savoring the moment
For somewhere in my mind
I knew it wouldn't last
Then I was brought back to
the surface when you spoke a
bit louder and I heard what you
were saying finally
.
.
.
.
.
.
It had been months with you
as mine
Just a few, but they'd leave
an everlasting impact on me
Every time I spoke to you
or even saw you was like the
first time you spoke to me
But things changed
You were only infatuated
with me
Infatuated with the idea of
feeling the same way I feel about
you towards me
It was my mistake though
I let my feelings become
permanent for someone who
was only temporary
I still dream that one day
you'll treat me the way that
you once did
But I know now that you
never treated me like you loved
me
I guess since I love you
I had some fantasy in my mind
that I believed to be real
That you felt the same about me
But it only got worse as I
witnessed right before my very
eyes
You being happier with someone else,
someone who wasn't me
And that stung like the first
time I tried a cigarette, except
maybe a whole lot worse.
