On The Run

Chapter Twenty Nine

My eyes flew open at the sound of a door clicking. I looked around the room, terrified of who I would find. As soon as I finally realize it was the sound of someone leaving the room, I let out a breath I didn't even realize I was holding.

I look around to see if there's any evidence of who left and notice, resting on my stomach, is a folded note. It looked like it was written with care, and I hesitated.

Realizing the only way to ease my curiosity was to actually read it, I carefully unfolded it and start from the top.

"Iz,
I can't even begin to tell you how lost I was without you... When you left me, I thought I would never be the same again. I could never be the person Riley needed me to be, and I could never get over you.

But when I saw you on the news, the heading saying you were found in critical condition... Alive... I was unbelievably relieved and overcome with joy I never knew I could feel again.

I don't know the extent of your injuries, but when I came to visit you again, and realized you didn't remember me, I felt worse than I did when I thought you had died. The fact that you could never remember our sadistic love story.

I can't imagine what it's like to be reading this, and I bet you are thinking I am the creep who did this to you, and I guess in a way, I am. But not the one who put you in this hospital.

Not the person who took all of your memories, good and bad...

But I did put you in this situation, but the entire time you still loved me and showed me what it was like to finally overcome my loss of my parents.

I forgave because of you. And I was able to love again because of you. But now... I lost you.

You don't deserve this, this confusion, heart ache, pain. I regret leaving you behind and there's not a day that is by where I don't blame myself. But you need to know the truth.

You deserve it. And even if you tell me that you blame me as much as I do... I will understand and I will let you live the life that you do deserve... Without me.

But I can only hope that our relationship really did mean as much to you as it did me... That it can make it through this.

I have watched you're health get stronger day by day, and I know you want out of here. But I can't offer that to you right now. The only thing I can offer is the whole story. No lies. The truth, and nothing but.

So, if you are interested, you need to find me at the roof of the hospital at 7 tonight. It's the only time the nurses don't do their half hour check ups on you.

If you don't show tonight, I promise I will leave... I will be gone from your life forever. I respect your needs. But if you do come, I need you to try... Try to remember.

I love you...
Ty xo"

My eyes well up as I read this heartfelt letter. The pain and regret was evident in each and every word. But could I trust it? If I did eventually show up... Could I trust what I was hearing?

He couldn't do anything at the roof of the hospital, there's too many people surrounding the building, and helicopters fly up there all the time for emergency fly ins... It's too risky for him to hurt me.

But if he wasn't the guy who put me in this situation, then who the hell was he? And why was I so infatuated with every word I read from his letter?

The doctor had told me about trusting my subconscious memories or feelings but this is too much to trust...

But I have made my decision to go because there is no reason to try to piece together the memories on my own... Even if they aren't true, maybe they will trigger something to help me put the puzzle together myself.