Aftermath (An SVU Fanfiction) *EDITING*

Afterlife

Dylan's POV

There was just blood everywhere and I didn't know what to do to help. And not for the first time in the last few months, I was useless. The knife was on the floor soaked in blood, the mini detective in me hoped that some of it was the perp's, for DNA, but just wishful thinking right? Whoever had stabbed Mom was already in the wind and Dad was kneeled next to her applying pressure to the stab wounds, telling her it'll be okay. But it's not gonna be okay is it? My mom, my best friend was bleeding out and I was stood like an idiot just watching her die. For christ sake Dylan get a grip, what would mom do? You're a Benson for god sake! The mini pep talk worked, so I told Aiden to get some towels from the bathroom to get him out of the room and away from the chaos. I wiped tears and pulled myself together. "Dad what do I do? The bus said it'll be here in 5." I knelt next to him and helped stop the bleeding. "Momma please, don't give up. We need you. I need you." I saw her eyes flutter open as the ambulance pulled into the driveway.

At the hospital

"Family of Olivia Benson?" Amanda unwrapped her arms from around my shoulders as Dad and the rest of the squad jumped up, except Carisi who was cradling a sleeping Aiden in his arms. "What's going on?"

"Is she okay?" The words flew out of my mouth before anyone else had the chance to speak. The doctor smiled "We managed to stop the internal bleeding and the anesthesia should wear off within the hour." She sensed our next question, "Just go in once at a time, and try not to exhaust her." We all thanked her and sat back down, letting dad go in first.

10 minutes later

"Guys she's awake." Dad popped his tear stained head out of the door and we all breathed a sigh of relief. The rest of the squad stood up and promised to visit in the morning, they tried to get me to go home with them but I refused, I needed to see her. Dad excused himself to go get a coffee and finally, I was allowed in.

She was lying in bed, tubes attached at every possible angle. She looked so... so vulnerable, I knew I needed to stay strong but it was a huge battle not to cry. "Hey baby girl." I ran towards her and she grabbed my hand, both of us now crying freely. " I thought I'd lost you. I....I....I" Mom lifted her hand and wiped one of my stray tears. "Hey sweetheart, look at me. It's okay, it's okay. I'm so sorry for scaring you." She squeezed my hand "Youre gonna be okay right?" She nodded and smiled "The doctors said I'll be out in a week and back busting perps in a month. I'm fine sweetie, I promise." I breathed a sigh of relief and we stayed in silence for a while, but it wasn't awkward. No, it was loving. It was perfect.

1 hour later

Eventually, the doctor came in and told us mom needed to rest, after little persuasion I agreed to let Amanda pick me up. "I'll see you tomorrow Mom, I love you." She smiled at me as she adjusted her position and winced. "I love you too baby, kiss Aiden for me." I followed dad out of the room and down to the parking lot "It's just for tonight sweetheart. I'm gonna try and sleep now and then I'm picking Eli up from the airport in the morning." I smiled at him and encased him in a hug. He put my bags in the trunk as I sat in the front seat of Amanda's car. He gave me a small wave and began walking back to the hospital. "Daddy," He turned around quickly, "I love you."

Olivia's POV

I've never really believed in the afterlife, heaven and hell and all that crap. I always thought that once you were dead there was just a black abyss and... and peace. That was until I died. Oh how wrong I was.

One minute I was staring into my husbands eyes, covered in blood, dying and the next I was in clothes I hadn't worn since the last time I visited my mother's grave and lying on the floor with not a drop of blood in sight. I quickly stood up and there in front of me was the person who I never thought I'd see again. Serena Benson, my mom, my abuser.

Suddenly the clothes made sense. She was sat on a white bench in what looked like Central Park, surrounded by snow and white light. It was so cliché. "Hey mom." I choked back tears as I stood in front of her. She looked up from her book "Olivia?" I smiled and sat down next to her. "How um, how have you been?" She closed her book and placed it on the floor. "I've been good Olivia, how are the children?"

I was surprised she knew about them, or cared. "They're good mom. So is Elliot." She nodded and sighed "Don't lie Olivia, I know what happened to Dylan. I'm not asking for much Livvie, just don't lie to me." I exhaled loudly, surprised at the use of my childhood name. "I'm sorry. I'm so scared Mom, she's going through what we went through at 14. 14! I want her to get better I just don't know how to help. She's hurting and I can't do anything about it, and that terrifies me. I had help, I had Elliot and...and my squad but Dylan? She has the squad sure but she's younger than I was, she's dying in front of me and I'm just watching. I've helped so many victims but I can't do anything for my own daughter, what kind of mother does that?" I was taken aback at how much I'd just offloaded. I never thought I'd admit those things. Ever. Especially not to my mother, after all these years and all she's done.

Amanda's apartment~Dylan's POV

"Hey Dyl." I was sat on the couch watching TV, enclosed in Amandas arms and in mom's favourite sweatshirt. "Uh Huh?" She started playing with the ends of my hair, just like she did when I was younger and upset. "I'm so so proud of you, you saved your mom's life today." I smiled and wiped a tear before it managed to fall. "Uh I hate to ask you but at sometime IAB is gonna want your statement, so would you mind coming to the Precinct tomorrow. It'll just be for an hour, I promise."

I looked up at her and smiled "Sure, if it helps. I'm okay Aunt Manda, you don't need to worry about me. I'm getting better. I promise." She pushed a stray hair out of my eyes."You've come so far, we all love you so much baby doll." I placed my head on her shoulder "I love you all too, so much." We soon fell asleep, exhausted from the days events.

That was an hour ago and I can hear Amanda snoring softly next to me, it's the most comforting noise in the world right now. Aiden's at Carisi's, I can't wait to see him, he's annoying as hell but I love him a lot. IAB are tracking down the woman who stabbed Mom. Bronwyn something or other. Apparently she had helped the guy who r...raped mom, escape prison. After all these years she was still pissed at my mom for killing the bastard, so she tracked her down and well she....she stabbed her. Honestly she left a huge paper trail and shouldn't be too hard to track down. If she didn't try to kill mom I'd probably feel sorry for her I guess, I mean she was brainwashed by that, that thing and it must be awful to love someone who is literally incapable of loving you back, but she tried to take away Olivia Benson and that just cannot happen, but when they do catch her I know that Barba will make sure she goes away for a long time.

The fact that I could have lost mom today is the most terrifying thing ever, but it made me realise that I have the best family in the world and blood or not, they'll always be there for me. 

I want to get better now. I won't let Lewis or..or Bronwyn or my...my rapist control me anymore. I deserve to live, so I'm gonna get better. For my family. For mom. For me.

A/n: So.. @svujunkiee wrote this chapter! Congrats to the winner! I know it's POV, it's different, but different is good every once in a while. Thanks for reading, lovelies!