Taking Command Book 2 (Kylux)

Chapter 34: Abandoned

Kylo PoV

I did not know where I was going or what I would do. I just knew that I had to find myself a new path in life. Despite some of my first instincts, I did not think that the life of a Jedi was one I would actively pursue. Being a Jedi was too binding and too uptight for me. I needed freedom to figure out what I was truly meant to do in life, and I needed to do it away from Hux.

I woke at dawn the morning after Hux and I's final confrontation. I snuck out of our shared room, leaving a small personal note on the dresser. I did not want this to be something broadcasted everywhere in the wee hours of the morning.

I went to board my ship, my personally commissioned Firespray class starship. It had turbo lasers, a state of the art security system, room for four, and cannons anywhere you could put cannons. The best part was that you could control everything, even the multivarious cannons, on one control panel. Well, I could, someone without the Force would not be able to do it.

I took with me my lightsaber, my bounty hunting gear, my blaster pistols that Hux had got me, my EE-3 Carbine rifle that I had bought myself after seeing it during our undercover mission, and perhaps as a weakness, I brought my old helmet and my photos. I had only three non electronically produced images. One of my family, one of my former classmates and myself, and one of Hux and I. They were all relics of a better time with less heartbreak. I brought them with me as my reminder that hopefully, things would get better.

I prepped the ship for takeoff when my comm buzzed. I answered it out of instinct. It was Hux.

"Please don't do this." He begged me again over the comm.

I winced. I had hoped that by leaving at dawn I would not wake Hux. I did not want to hurt him any further. I responded with two words. "I'm sorry." Then I cut him off and subsequently crushed the com link with the Force. I did not want him contacting me. Hopefully he would find another man who would support him and not betray him as I had. I wished him the best on his path. Hux was bound for greatness. I had almost been part of it in a very large way.

I could feel the pain. I was so closely attached to Hux that even worlds apart , I could have sensed his emotions, and right now, his grief was overwhelming. I tried to send calming, soothing emotions over our shared brainwaves, but I knew I should just let him go. But I couldn't. This Force given connection was all I had left to know if he was even alive. I could not give it up.

"I'm always with you," I whispered to the stars as I jumped to hyperspace and abandoned the man I had loved enough to kill for.