L&O: SVU One Shots

Positive (Amaro)

Dedicated to @Paige122302

I had been feeling a little sick lately. I thought it was just all the bodies and horrible crime that surrounded me, but I wanted to be sure. After work I went into a random convenience store pick up a couple of different brands of pregnancy tests. I could not wait to go home and settle this feeling once and for all.
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I was extremely nervous about the results. I was not ready to have a child and neither was my boyfriend. We had only been together a year and half. Plus, we had to keep our relationship a secret; we worked as detectives on the Manhattan SVU squad. Liv, our boss, would kill us if she knew.

I was shaking and a cold sweat came over me. I was so ready for the negative results. I wanted to see that little dash of a line so badly that I screamed.

"C'mon already!"

And like a movie, the results appeared after I yelled aloud.

Positive?

"This has to be a mistake!" I scrambled to see if the others ones were showing the same thing.

Sure enough, all but one showed the plus sign. I began to cry and look at my body. I pulled my hair and had a full on tantrum. What was I going to tell Liv, or even Nick for that matter?

I was in the middle of sobbing when I heard the apartment door opened and slide back into place with a soft click! noise. I looked into the mirror and gather myself. What a mess! I will never be a good mother! I wiped the runny makeup off my red and puffy face and fixed my tangled hair. Then, I grabbed all the pregnancy tests off of the bathroom sink counter and went to greet a hopefully-not-angry-Nick.

"Nick?" I called out his name.

He was changing out of his clothes. I could hear him chuckle. I knew he had something good to tell me; he always did that when he had good news. He turned around to face me. He was about to smile and say hello, but when he saw the look on my face and the tests in my hands, his jaw hung loose.

"Paige? Are those...do they?" he tried to form a sentence, but nothing sounded quite right.

I put my hand on his shoulder, "I think I'm pregnant."

He looked down at my stomach. I handed him the tests, and he took his time carefully looking at each and every one of them. A smile grew on his face.

"This is great," he laughed.

"No it's not you idiot!" I yelled, "What will Liv say? Will either of us get fired? Do you know how much stress this is going to cause? What if I have a miscarriage? I do not want everyone's pity. I do not want to be babied around!"

Nick tried to calm me down, "Well, one of our problems is solved. I went to Liv after you left to tell her about you and me. She was not happy at first, but she allowed it. That does not mean we are not going to get criticism form others, but they do not matter anyway."

I swallowed a huge lump in my throat, "I'm just scared. I do not think I am ready to be a mother."

"You have the ultimate decision," he grinned.

I hugged him tightly and nearly collapsed in his arms. He picked me up bridal style and carried me over to the couch. He set me down gently like a fragile doll. We laid down with him being the big spoon and me being the little one. Nick gently ran his fingers through my hair. I sat in silence and began to think.

I imagined all the fun times we would have with the baby. I also thought about their teenage years. Nick would be a protective dad, especially if it was a girl. I thought about Zara coming over and spending time with her little sibling. Would Maria even let that happen?

"Hey Nick," I spoke, eliminating the silence between us, "I think I want to have the baby."

"That's great," he kissed my neck, "Do what you want to do. To be honest, I was really hoping you would say that."

"So, what do we do now?" I asked.

He replied, "Go see a doctor I guess. I'm not sure if Liv is going to tell the rest of the squad or not."

"We will figure this all out later," I sighed, "Right now I just feel like going to sleep here in your arms."

"Isn't this how everything got started?" he eyes looked to my stomach and then back to me.

I rolled my eyes, "Shut up and cuddle me."

He smirked, "Whatever you say."