When The World Crumbles (Sequel To Why Me?)

Chapter 8

Sorrrrrrrrrrry the updates were soooooo slowwwwwww

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Chapter 8

I grasped the bed sheets, tear stains on my cheeks.The curling feeling in my abdominal as i pushed with all might, Nialls strong hands gripping mine as i squeezed them tightly taking out my anger. Sweat droplets cascading down my face as i clenched my jaws tightly screaming in pain.

"you can do this Sky." Niall whispered.

I squeezed his hand even tighter as the faint noise of the nurse instructing me zoned out.

"1,2,3 PUSH" she said as i pushed and pushed with all the energt i had left.

"I can't.do.this" i breathed heavily.

"You're almost there Sky. Soon" Niall kissed my hesd gently stroking my hair.

"I can see the head, keep going! And 1,2,3 PUSH" the nurse said quickly.

At that point my body had drained all of its remaining energy, but i knew that James had to come out sooner or later. Pain ripping through me i pushed one last time, recieving a feeling of emptyness, a feeling of release.

"Well done" the nurse cood as i pushed my head back breathing in relief, Nialls smile quickly turned into a frown. Then my smile turned into worry.

"Why isnt James crying" i asked looking up in shock.

"Dont worry about it, this happens often" the nurse said taking James over to a counter. I watched disheartned, like my baby was being took away from me. I wasnt the first person to hold my baby in my arms.

The nurse turned her head worried and snapped it back around.

"Whats wrong nurse" Niall said

"Why isnt he crying or screaming" i added. All of a sudden 3 docters came running into the room crowding round my defenceless little baby boy. A tear slipping down my cheek as i started to come to terms with what was happening. His soft little hand draping off the side of the counter, his tiny little tuffet off hair you could bearly see because of the small crowd around him.

I just want to be there for him, to comfort him, i want his mummy to be there, to protect him! I want to watch him grow old,his first christmas, his first birthday, his first day of preschool, find a girlfriend and get married, watch them grow old together!

I want to watch my son through his journey but right now i dont know whats happening.

Nialls hands squeezed mine tighter.

The docters all left with baby james in there arms

"Where are they going with my baby" i said another tear escaping my eye.

"Im so sorry. But your baby was too weak, You're baby was so premature, im afraid he was still born." And those were the words that literally killed me. Inside and out!

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I FINALLY UPDATED :)