(Cas' POV)
Did Dean really just see me in a freaking clown suit? God, he probably thinks I'm a freak.
I strip off the clown outfit, and get in the shower.
I tried my best to get all the glitter out of my hair, but of course there is still some, so I hop back in the shower.
When I get out of the shower again there is still glitter in my hair, I swear this stuff is like permanent when you put it in.
Before I get back in, to try to get the rest out I check my phone.
No notifications but the time catches my eyes, 4:40. Shit. I throw my phone back on the table and run over to my dresser, pulling out some clothes. I quickly get dress, then run into my bathroom, there was a knock at the door. Shit, he's here.
I run over to the door, trying to smooth out my hair before opening it.
Meg stood in the front of the door.
"Shit, what do you want?" I asked looking around the hall.
"I was seeing if you wanted to hang out." She replied. Of course I want to hang out with her, I have the biggest crush on her, but Dean.
"Erm, I can't right now." I stuttered. My hand rubbed at the back of my neck.
"Ok," She said walking away.
"Meg, Meg!" I ran after her. She turned around looking at me. "Um, maybe to-tomorrow." I said with a grin. "Ok," She said pulling at her jacket then started walking again. I let out a breath than went back into my room.
I quickly did my hair, not being able to dry it off any, before Dean nocked at my door.
I opened it, finding Dean, his green eyes looked into my blue, with a smile on his face.
"Hey, there clowny!" He said, blushing. I grabbed my tan trench coat then went with Dean.
We got into his car, when I noticed my tie was on backwards, why can't I ever do ties right, maybe he won't notice.
"Where are we exactly going?" He stuttered. "Erm, I don't know." I laughed, we never exactly talked about what we were going to do. He glanced at me then started driving.
•
We arrived at the beach. Dean took off his boots, throwing them in the back, me doing the same.
We walked along the beach. "So I don't exactly know you, have you always lived around here?" He glanced at me.
"Yeah, I grew up in this town," I said watching him kick at the sand. "Are you planning to stay here for the rest of your life?"
"Uh, yeah I guess, I don't know."
"Do you have any siblings?" He walked to the other side of me, now walking in the water.
"Well there's Balthazar, Gabriel, Raphael, Anna, and-" I paused.
I noticed Dean was staring at me. "And Jimmy." I choked.
"Are you alright?" Dean asked putting a hand on my shoulder. I nodded in reply,staring at his hand, our eyes met then he removed his hand and started walking.
We walked in silence for a few minutes.
"Jimmy, is dead." I choked. Why did I say that?
We stopped walking. Dean stared in my eyes.
"It was my fault." What the hell am I doing? I never told anyone this, not even my sister and brothers.
"It was an accident. We were playing." I stopped to catch my breathe.
"I buried him in blankets and pillows, cause that's what we would do, we were only 12, that was our game, and I got this idea to climb on top of the pillows and blankets, and sit on them. Jimmy was screaming 'get off get off ' I didn't cause I thought he just wanted out, so I didn't then, there was no noise or movement and so I got off and he was dead, I suffocated him." I didn't know I was crying till dean put his thumb to my cheek. "He suffocated, cause of me. So when I figured out he was, dead, I didn't know what to do so I cleaned up and I made it look like-" I paused.
"I made it look like he killed himself. I got some rope and tied it in his closet, and put him on the ground, in the closet. and no one ever figured out the truth. I didn't even tell anyone. Dean your the only person that knows the truth except for me." I cried.
Dean pulled me into him.
"I killed my brother." I cried into his shoulder. His hand stroked at my hair.
"He was everything to me, more then my twin brother, he was my best friend, the only person that I trusted, Dean he stopped me from killing myself."
"It's ok you didn't know."
He held me close for a few more seconds then pulled back.
"Lets go get some ice cream." He said looking into my eyes. I nodded. He put his hands on my face and wipes the tears away from my cheeks with his thumbs.
