Holding On

Chapter 22

(I'm back!! I'm sorrryy)

Lauren's POV:

Everything was happening so fast; it was as if I was sinking in my own mind. Thought after thought, everything was spinning. Why? How? She kept this from me all this time; she knew. Georgia knew, she killed my parents. She was the one in the car, she drove and crashed into my parents when they were coming to get me.

I sat on my bed in Georgia's room packing all my stuff up. I had to get out of this place; I couldn't stay here anymore. I grabbed my duffle bag underneath my bed and began shoving my clothes inside the bag. I walked over to the nightstand grabbing my glasses and book. I picked them up throwing them onto to top of my bag when I picture flew onto the floor. I picked it up flipping it over; it was a picture of Georgia and I from last year during spirit week at school. I stared at it; she was smiling in this photo when she knew the truth. Everything from that night to this moment was a lie.

The front door opened and footsteps echoed throughout the house stopping infront of the room.

"Lauren." It was Georgia; I kept my back towards her. "Lauren please let me explain."

"Do you see this." I turned holding the picture in front of me. "This was from last year a few weeks after my parents died and you were smiling. You killed them."

"Lauren that's not what happened. I had to much to drink and my mom had called yelling where I was, so I thought I was fine to drive and next thing I knew."

"No!" I screamed. "I don't want to listen to this. You could've told me, no you should've told me. Instead you let me for over a year go crazy over who was it in that car and all along it was you. How could you do that to me?!"

"It was an accident Lauren. I didn't want this to happen, I didn't want you to hate me, I felt so horrible. Each and everyday I looked at you knowing your parents were gone because of me; I didn't want to lose you also."

"So you lied instead." I grabbed my bag off the bed.

"Where are you going? You don't have anywhere to go Lauren, let's just talk about this."

I ripped the picture in half tossing it in her face. "I don't have anywhere to go because you took that from me." I walked out the front door not looking back.

 I threw my bag into the car and pulled out of the driveway. I drove to the only place that made sense right now, the place that made everything stop. I parked in front of my house and walked up the driveway towards the door; I put the key in the lock twisting it open. I haven't been inside here since Avery was diagnosed, I just haven't had the strength to come back. Everything was in its place: the couch, the kitchen table, the coffee pot. I took a deep breath; this was home. I walked up the staircase towards the bedrooms. I walked into my parents first, there bed was neatly made, the blankets folded and placed on the end of the bed. It smelt like my mom's perfume, as if she was still here. I closed the door behind me and walked into Avery's room. Her yellow walls and flowers with her thousand stuff animals. I sat down on her bed picking up her favorite stuffed animal kangaroo. I held it close against my body; I didn't even realize I was crying until I felt a the fur on the animal against my skin. I got up walking out of her room, the last room up here was mine. The door was sealed shut. I placed my hand on the knob twisting the door open; it creaked open since it hadn't been touched in over a year. My hand covered my mouth and the tears began streaming down my face.

I forgot what my room had looked like; I walked in the walls were still there green color and my desk was filled with papers and my textbooks. This was my life just a year ago, and now everything was different. I was nearly finished with High School and my whole life had been flipped around. My walls were consumed with photos: there was the one of Georgia and in seventh grade when we made the soccer team, there was another one of Maddison and I on our first day of High School, and there was one of the whole family smiling. That was the last photo I had put up on the wall. It was a week before the car crash, before everything had changed. I took the photo off the wall holding it against my heart.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered. "I'm sorry all this happened that I let this happen. We were supposed to be a family and now you guys are all gone." I took out my phone it had twelve missed calls from Hunter and three from Georgia. I went to my voicemail and clicked on the only one I had.

(Phone call voicemail)

"Lauren it's mom, I know you snuck out of the house I kinda had a feeling you were gonna. I sent your father up to go check on you and when he came back down he said you were gone. We are in the car right now on our way to come pick you up. We are on the street so be ready when we get there. I know you are mad at us, but..." The line went silent and there was muffled screams and then silence.

(end of voicemail)

"Lauren" Hunter walked into the room sitting down next to me on the floor. "Why didn't you ever show me that?"

"Because she called on the phone telling me she was coming to get me, she got distracted because she was on the phone with me and then.." I stopped wiping my tears. "And then Georgia hit them."

"Lauren." He wrapped his arms around me holding me tight as I continued to sob into his arms. "Everything is going to be okay, I'm here." His hand rubbed against my back.

"How did you know I was here." I spoke softly looking up at him.

"It was a gut feeling." He wiped the tears that were streaming down my cheeks. "You're gonna be okay Lauren." 

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OKay guys I'm sooooo sorry.. School is finally over and I passed all my test!! Yayy freedom :)) 

But okay so now that I'm finsihed with school I'll have more time to write and update for you guys! Oh and big news another reason why I haven't updated in a little while was because I recently started working on another book that doesn't have a name yet.. opps.. But I think you guys are really going to like it well fingers crossed.. 

Ummmm Well I hope y'all enjoyed this chapter. It was a really hard chapter to write because Lauren is just so broken again and I just can't.. 

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